lets lighten up my blog a bit since it was flooded with emo posts for the past few days~ gloomy no more.

taken from soompi.
RANDOM MP3 QUIZ.

I don't wanna die,
But I ain't keen on living either.

I just wanna feel real love,
Feel the home that I live in,
I got too much love,
Running through my veins, going to waste.

but i'm losing this place, i'm losing home.

i shouldn't hv sent the msg to her. it wasn't meant to be for her.

everything was fine until i had a big fight with my family this afternoon. it was so serious to the point i tried to suicide , the mike wire is still hanging there. i could hv just hang myself anytime now & leave this miserable life. i broke down for hours in the toilet.i laughed,screamed,even attempting to drown myself but nothing works.
i hate how i still can't win over the pain of death. dad & sis jus doesn't understand. i'm still growing up, my feelings is still shaking, my heart is still uncertain, why must they do this at this time?
when i'm still a teen. when i need care & support,they had to do this to me.

So it seems like i only use this to fangirl & yap bout my hubby =)

Time for a personal post.
anyway, i'm very vocal with my displeasures and if i said it all, you'll hate me, if you didn't already. so i don't really care right now because hey,it's my place here so leave if you're unhappy.

Look,my uneasiness/sarcasm were obvious,because fck i dont fake a smile to ppl who i dislike.
i don't like them. & idc if they think i'm mean cuz i dun give a damn. talking bout how ignorant i can be >__>


There're some ppl that,no matter how hard i try, i still dislike. hey bitches & jerks, i may hv attitude problem by simply taking you as invisible, cuz' you're a pain in my eyes. you hurt my view. so go away. or else i might puke the next time i see you again.
& if you think that's rude, that's a whole lot more better than faking myself like everyone trying to like you when i don't at all. i sound like a hater but i'm not.
HATE & DISLIKE IS TWO DIFFERENT THINGS ALRIGHT?
who cares even if you're big. listen, i don't give a damn even if you're GOD with that kind of attitude. who the hell cares even if you're oh so hot yada yada.

seeing a close friend turning into some lala bitch really saddens me. i'm shocked at how sudden it happened. she's in my ignorant list from that day onwards, even if i was really upset of myself for doin something terrible like this. i could hv just pretend like nothin happened & move on but i can't,i can't force myself to like something i don't when its all over in front of my eyes.
her changes were obvious, so clear i can't believe my eyes.
are you sure they're the real friends that will be there for you no matter what?
there is nothing i can do about it,really. ppl change & so do i. but changing into a bad thing, especially when its something like that, it is the fullstop for this friendship.
because i hate lalas. okay?
it's not the glam or fame or about being vain pretty yada yada in my world,its about the PRETTY HEART. so i'm sry we can't be friends anymore. jus the slightest hi & bye will do for us. no more close chit chats, happy moments, because you totally changed to a somewhat unlikeable person for me.

& for a serious deal, i despise guys who keeps sticking with girls all the time. cheap much? you know what? you are so cheap cheap cheap & ugly that way.
you scream man all over yet you're sticking with miss paris hilton like her Chihuahua.


well, i'm sarcastic if you make me.


i'm like that because well.. i'm different. i'm not easy to understand like any other person. it'll take forever to probably read my heart bcuz i hide my real feelings pretty well.

i hate awkward moments so i avoid them;i love my space & thank you.

for a lighter note,
IMPORTANT ANNOUCEMENT TO ALL NETIZENS.(wtf yes ;_;)

im gonna start calling teukie "yeobo" from now on. calling him by his real name seems a little disrespectful;

1. he's 10 yrs by me
2. they care a lot about polite terms in korea
   
   

SO YEAH. since when am i so polite anw? XD
& oppa sounds too common. so yeobo. bwahahah
yeobo stands for hubby/dear or something like that so yeah. & that jagi title belongs to me for all yr information.
JAGI=WIFE XD what i'm shameless like that bwahahahhahahah!! 8DDD!


p/s:should i upload pictures? if i hv time i shall but in the next post =)
p/p/s: accounts on monday. history on tuesday. 2 more days to go.
kill me someone before i get killed by the papers TT__TT

im playing SHINee's romeo teaser now & damn,the instrumental is truly lovely it matches my feelings so well,at this moment.
i love teukie & sj & its you & ver c & im just floating right now~dont bother to wake me up from my fantasy.youth comes only once so let me enjoy this feelin'~

lets see how sentimental can i get with the four new songs in ver c.
she wants it,deep inside she whispered. what exactly does she want? she only know she's infected by this love disease, & she knew right away its you who she really needs. she couldn't stop but to love you more. ♥




*omg that was cheesy wtf* XD

edit: am happy they're singin more r&b tracks cuz i really like r&b & b4 their comeback,i've mentioned the wish 3jib would contain more R&B since its somethin the boys rarely does in the past.sigh,they nvr fail to amaze ♥

i was feeling insanely down today & this really,really cheered me up.

IT'S YOU is officially released. yay/ lets enjoy the translation guys.

ENG Translation

It's You ( It's You)
It's You (It's You)
It's only you for me (It's You)
It's You (It's You)

I don't need anyone else, it's only you
When you ask again, it's only you
Even if you already have another love
I can't forget you, I can't turn back around

The moment my eyes began to burn
The moment a nail was driven in the depth of my heart ( It's You)
I have no regrets, I chose you
That's right, it's you

Oh whatever anyone anyone says
It doesn't matter to me
Oh whoever whoever curses me
I'll only look at you
Even when I'm born again, it's still only you
Even as time goes by

Oh, when you tell me you love me
When you tell me thousands and millions of times
Even when my heart sets on fire, my dry lips wear out
Even when I'm born again, it's still only you
(Still still) Even as time goes by
Oh, I

Ah ah only for you (x7)

I don't need any words, it's just you
"It's too late", but for me it's just you
I know our love is wrong
I can't give up, I can't let you go
My lips, cold as can be, are even more blue
I cry out to find to find your warmth
I call, even though I call for you
And there's no reply, I'll wait for you

Oh whatever anyone anyone says
It doesn't matter to me
Oh whoever whoever curses me
I'll only look at you
Even when I'm born again, it's still only you
(Still still) Even as time goes by

Oh, when you tell me you love me
When you tell me thousands and millions of times
Even when my heart sets on fire, my dry lips wear out
Even when I'm born again, it's still only you
(Still still) Even as time goes by
Oh, I

Ah ah only for you
Ah ah only for you

For me, it's you, it's you, I...
Why don't you know, why don't you know?
For me, it's you, it's you, I

Oh whatever anyone anyone says
It doesn't matter to me
Oh whoever whoever curses me
I'll only look at you
Even when I'm born again, it's still only you
(Still still) Even as time goes by

Oh, when you tell me you love me
When you tell me thousands and millions of times
Even when my heart sets on fire, my dry lips wear out
Even when I'm born again, it's still only you
(Still still) Even as time goes by
Oh, I

It's you (It's you)
It's only you ( It's you)
It's you (It's You)

credits to kimchi hana@soompi + evantuhryna@forsuju13
(not including member's name of each lines cuz some were not confirmed yet & i jus wanna leave it this way first)

I have no regrets, I chose you. ITS YOU BABY, ITS YOU FOR ME ♥
no matter what others say.
i love the lyrics,its so deep yet so simple to describe my feelings for them. what's for sure, IT'S YOU sj. it's only you, & will always be that way♥


trying hard to memorize the kor romanizations. im sure i can remember everything in a day. gosh,this is much easier than studying for math tmw T_T

lets not keep the "this is the last post" stupid promise anymore. it doesn't work anw. anw,i really feel like posting this. & this shall srsly be my last post till i hv something important to blog again so cuz' im going to "jail" for sometime starting from tmw. u guys know what i mean right? ha.

thank you e-tribe for composing such a brilliant song for the boys~ you are so gorgeous! :D

i lied.

i said i'll be back at the end of may but look what am i doing now. gosh..im so uncontrollable.T.T
since this is my last post till midterm ends,i'll talk about something fresh. as usual,those who're not interested is welcomed to leave :)









gosh,now that adds up to 3 girlgroups in my fandom list. WG,AFTER SCHOOL & NOW 2NE1. wait Davichi & newcomer T-ara is in the list too. OMGOMG im going nuts. stop the obsession already T__T i cant help it. they produce awesome music k? & i like awesome stuffs so..

(what? so 5 girlgroups?! imcrazy ==)


back to the topic.
they're fresh & new, i like them.

at first i didn't take a liking to "FIRE",in fact i thought the teasers were better. but when i really put myself in the music & enjoy the beat,i actually like it.

the second their mv was released,the crazy views in various sites=1.5million views just in one day.crazy fame they got there.

& i freaking love CL. she's the fierce,strong attitude kinda girl. gosh to think she's born in 91. she's so much like the female GD.




considering suju's new song "IT'S YOU" 1st perf is on the same day 2ne1 will make their 1st debut perf, i'm a little excited & also tensed for both of my lovelies at the same time.idk,i feel like 2ne1 will sweep sj down by rising up to all the music charts & all. this is gonna be a tough competition.& its gonna be hard on me T.T
but sj is irriplacable no matter who i like. so yeah,sj ftw~
& both groups is gonna promote around the same time,
(sj with" IT'S YOU", 2ne1 with "FIRE". both will perform their new single on 17th MAY ><) so i hope they will do well & being the biased elf,of course i want more benefits for sj~

nevertheless,i'll look forward to 2ne1 too. :]

gosh i dont like the idea of them promoting together at the same time~ its just doesnt feel right to me. bad coincidence i say T_T


btw,suju's new song is leaked & i'm not happy bout it. 13 boys spliting the money they earned is hard enough, & now the song is freaking leaked & if it affects the sales im gonna kill everyone.



p/s:i'm in love with 2pm too. *winks*
& i love ALL the tracks in their latest mini album so yay ;D

shortly the fav spots has been filled by junho,nickhun,jay & junsu ! XDD

i cant believe im liking hiphop music. hiphop music is not really my thing before.
as sm style is more of my liking-happy,sweet,bubble gum,pop,dance track,soothing,comforting,addictive style.
i guess im unconsciously giving others a try. 2pm,after school,2ne1-theyre gorgeous!
& bigbang.yeah bigbang.god i love bigbang :D lol/


srsly,being a fangirl may seem nothing but its not really that way.blah nonfans wont understand anw.pft

ahhh~ the pain of being part of too many fandoms ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ

p/p/s: SJ IS STILL MY NUMBER 1 NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS!XD k,everyone knows that -.-''

p/p/p/s: wth am i doing. EXAM IS STARTING ON TUESDAY SO I SHOULDN'T BE HERE!

gahgahgah. *runs away*

i know i'll be back again. *evilsmirk*

*SMACK!*

WTH
i wont even be smirking when exam comes,i'll be crying like theres no tmw ㅠㅠ


edit:i forgot bout my hubby ^^; (ok so what.i jz dont feel right if theres no teukie or sj in a post 8DDD)