yeah. july. they've chosen JULY. july 17 to be exact. mark that date.cuz from that date onwards the boys will be conquering asia. once again.
wouldn't it be awesome if the concert date kicks off on JULY 12? LOL. anyway,this is definitely the best gift for my bday that i couldn't ask for more.

i'm not sure if anyone'd understand this.. but i had a strong desire to see them winning the gayo daejun daesangs.
you guys remember what hyuk said last yr? they weren't in the last yr's daesang list & did not take home any award due to their 1 & a half yr hiatus..

& now their 2nd asia tour is starting from July 17 onwards, aiming 7 cities in asia
7 cities,10 perfs=probably months of rehearsals & it'd take months to finish the tour.. & its starting on july. by the time the boys had finished their tour,i predict it'd be the end of the yr.. & wouldn't they miss out the gayo daejun daesangs?

unless :

1. they hold on some of the cities to next yr & release a single/mini album after the tour in 1 or 2 cities first.
2. they don't do concert at all. LOL WTH THIS IS OBVIOUSLY A JOKE!! OKAY NOT FUNNY -.-''
   

but if its vice versa;which means they'll only focus on their asia tour for the whole 2nd half of 2009 after their 3jib promotion ends then.. will they make it to the yr end music festivals?
i jus feel that it's a lil bit of a pity to miss out the gayo daejun daesangs..
& to win the daesangs the boys probably'd hv to comeback with a single or a whole new mini-album around idk, august , sept, oct ? better before nov..cuz usually daesangs count a lot on recent comebacks & stuff.
and wouldn't that be really tiring & clashing with the boys's 2nd asia tour?
unless they're planning to release a single or mini album(which i really hope) then they could probably aim the end yr daesangs..
but at the moment seems like i'm the only one too concerned about the yr end awards when its only june now! lolz!! its barely after they started promotion for neorago & im talking about another comeback here! lmfao talking about anticipation here .__.

the last time they pwn the yr end awards was back in 2007 when they won "ARTIST OF THE YEAR". awesome ain't it? *prays history repeats itself*


so my conclusion is just this simple, I WANT THE BOYS TO GRAB THE YR-END AWARDS BACK HOME GRANDLY!!!

let's just wait & see. for the moment we should be prepared for their asia tour as its really soon.
seoul, theres 3.
beijing, shanghai: lets say there are 3 concerts in the whole of china.
bangkok, taipei and the other 2 cities: 1 each.
so 2 more left. MAN I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING CUZ IM THINKING THE SAME THING TOO.
LET THE LUCKY ONE OF THE TWO STILL YET TO BE DISCLOSED CITY MALAYSIA!! if its not malaysia but singapore i'll be screaming too. cuz know what?
I'M SO GOING TO THE TOUR IF SPORE OR MSIA IS IN THE LIST. EITHER ONE. but idk,feels like there's a slim chance msia'll be in the list. spore? not sure too. bleah. *prays*



on a darker note..
july will not be a very pleasing month to me. why?
i can't quite tell but i hv some issues currently (which leads to the emo me in the past few weeks) and july will be a painful month,extremely-because it'll be a turning point in my life. something will change in my life and i was deeply depressed & saddened by it up to now each time i think about it.. it's not a problem i can avoid even by laughing it off. it's not a joking matter.

so you see how i don't anticipate the month of july? but after hearing the news that the boys will be havin their 2nd asia tour i can't quite tell how i will feel about july but hopefully,with the news of the asia tour,i'll be able to gain a little more strength from the boys & keep moving on despite the big issue/matter i'll be facing with in July.
it sure will be painful,it sure will hurt,but it's a fact that i can't avoid anymore. it's a fact that i need to face although i feel like dying alr.


& because of this, i'm not sure how i will be strong, because i really dislike troubles(who does anw?) and i don't want this mess and fuss all over in my lucky month July.you know how it feels when other ELF are rejoicing over this happy news yet i can't be fully happy bout it because of the tons of burdens i need to carry on my shoulder? i wish i'm a little older to handle with this matter, for at least i'd be stronger. not as weak as now. 16 is not a pleasing age,certainly not old enough to handle with this kind of matter that requires a lot, a lot of strength,patience,endurance,maturity, that not a 16 yr old nowadays could deal with . kids nowadays don't hv to worry a lot, they're filthy rich jerks & bitches that hv their so called rich parents to feed them like a big huge bear.

i'm not rich. i'm from a average family with a very,very average condition. maybe a little more lucky because i could still afford to support my boys's work ,at the same time enjoying life a little.

i want to be happy like other kids too, i want to live a happy life like how teens at my age does too. but i can't anymore. god has chosen me, me out of the million & billion & zillion humans out of this world. ME. he picked me. i can't brag on & complain like how i used to be anymore "WHY CAN'T HE CHOOSE ANOTHER PERSON? THERE IS MANY MORE HUMANS AROUND THE WORLD,WHY ME OF ALL CREATURES? "

it's not something i'd want to ask anymore. i'm so tired & sick dealing with this. because well,he chose me.

this feeling is not something others or any other human'd understand. i keep trying to forget,keep trying to erase but it keep coming back to me-bcuz its cold hard reality that i had to face,not avoid.
i can avoid,maybe for weeks,but when the time comes,i can't anymore.

& because time is ticking by,passing by unknowingly,because i could not pause it,there is nothing i'd do anymore.

damn. it gets emo unconsciously.

forget it. i'll shake off the stress by feeding myself with more & more music & sj's tour. thats if,the last city is malaysia.

p/s:its summer in korea. okay i'm not alone~ bwahahahah.
p.p.s:my air-cond spoiled.actually weeks ago but being the good girl i'm,i didn't brag bout it bcuz hey,i take it as a good chance to save the earth. reduce CFC usage yo.