thank you.
see you in my funeral people.
sickkkk.
outta control
timeless.
i can't breathe no more;i can't sleep no more.
defeated.
wake me up when september ends.
you know...when you really love someone..
maze.
utterly fed-up with my finals.
even my test 3 results was way better. i'll flunk the results,i'm not kidding this time. i know how bad i did. i just couldn't believe i broke my own promise.. my only promise to prove myself. now i'm screwing everything,from this to that. how is that?
it was going all fine till.... man,irdk.
someone needs to really whack the hell outta me to wake me up..i'm just drowning in invisibility.
no matter how strong i try to stay.. in the end its always the weaker part which takes over me. i still can't stay strong..why? even after all these?
i'm going to be hard on myself. idk what will i do..but my heart screams a self-punishment.
theres not even someone to talk to comfortably,
and..you. dont talk like that. its not you in this position, so don't.
do you know? its like millions & millions of arrows targeted from ur back,shot right through ur heart.
is this even life? am i even living?
BUT.
ive decided.
that i'll finally get over the ridiculous fact. although at times it didn't seem like it,mentally i already had. its just a physical reaction. believe me when i say noone knows my mind,because most of the time they got it wrong. & they think they know so much about me,pft. get your facts right i'm not easy. okay? don't laugh just because its the same phrase from FH,i mean it.
ive decided.
that i'll finally get over the ridiculous fact. although at times it didn't seem like it,mentally i already had. its just a physical reaction. believe me when i say noone knows my mind,because most of the time they got it wrong. & they think they know so much about me,pft. get your facts right i'm not easy. okay? don't laugh just because its the same phrase from FH,i mean it.
i may be a little too carried away with my pride,but its okay now. i'm really learning how to let go..i'm really feeling the pain, I DID IT.
i was the one watching..watching things left one by one in my life..feeling how pain strikes like a thunder. with my very own eyes. with my very own heart. how can i not feel a thing?
i've heard a lot of things. along with these things,it tags along with an arrow,shooting continously from my back. i felt them.
i feel so uncertain & lost. in a maze without the way out. going back & forth,heading to nowhere.
2 more months. its been an unhappy year. i seriously didn't see that coming before..i was expecting 09 to be awesome because.. my heart just feels so.
unrelated note#1
-Happy Belated 4 Years. ♥♥♥ i remembered.. just so y'know.
its been 2 years with you..for me. lets walk together,without giving up.
#2-been having BEG's Sign on repeat everyday~ their song. it makes you feel.
#3 - F YOU H1N1. STOP ATTACKING MY BOYS RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
jin ki get well soon soon soon! T^T
i was the one watching..watching things left one by one in my life..feeling how pain strikes like a thunder. with my very own eyes. with my very own heart. how can i not feel a thing?
i've heard a lot of things. along with these things,it tags along with an arrow,shooting continously from my back. i felt them.
i feel so uncertain & lost. in a maze without the way out. going back & forth,heading to nowhere.
2 more months. its been an unhappy year. i seriously didn't see that coming before..i was expecting 09 to be awesome because.. my heart just feels so.
but then my instincts are wrong..totally wrong. will 2010 be any different? idk... i don't wanna know..
-Happy Belated 4 Years. ♥♥♥ i remembered.. just so y'know.
its been 2 years with you..for me. lets walk together,without giving up.
#2-been having BEG's Sign on repeat everyday~ their song. it makes you feel.
#3 - F YOU H1N1. STOP ATTACKING MY BOYS RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
jin ki get well soon soon soon! T^T
..i own an invisible heart..you can't reach it,or break it.
