idk. its sooo frustrating/devastating/heartwrecking to be even thinking about something that i really shouldn't at the first place.

i don't know how to go on from here.
HECK IT--
i'm moving on,regardless of whatever shit that rolls in.
BUT when this kind of shit happens..it bothers the slightest fuck outta me. why?

deal with it already. & then you try to shut the world down-your way.
because nothing ever goes your way,none.
look at the bright side. perhaps 2010 will be a better year. this is just not ur year,move the fuck on.

i knew it from the start-astrology predictions came true. this is why you believe in them. because dang,out of 10 predictions,8 happened.

see? i'm not sure to believe my sign predictions for next year cuz' i stop believing in optimism a while ago. i dont believe things will really change for the better because well.. i dun need to explain the 3424729 shitty craps that ive encountered so far.

so this is how i'll be living from now on. a new year,a new motto.


HAZ TO INSTALL THESE IN MASELF. CUZ IF I DON'T, I'LL FALL APART & SHATTER INTO PIECES before i even realize.

no pain no gain was my 09's motto, but heck idek what have i really accomplished to be even proud of this year.

2009 was shitty,to say the least.

I JUST HOPE 2010 WON'T BE AS SHITTY.
IDC IF IT'S GONNA SUCK,JUST DON'T BE AS SHITTY AS 09 DID. PLZZZZ.

p/s:time flies. forever is short.