THIS WAS 4 DAYS AGO BUT HOMG PETER REPLIED TO MY TWEET (twice!)
AND I HAD NO IDEA UNTIL NOW. /fail.

hi my name is precious haters to the left to the left muahahahahha

ps. excuse me i get a lil high bcuzi had like 2 packs of jelly beans this is rly the first time someone called me precious(thats why it is precious) ROFL stupid jelly beans ;A;

pps next mission: get pete/chance/youngsky to call me baby rofl I'M CRAZEHHHHHHHHHHH SO SO SO CRAZYYYY :DDDDDDD
look. three-timing all at once is not a crime so hahahaha sue me idc :P

Labels: high on sugar again, peter, twitter

i'm still in my 'march-20th-fever-syndrome T^T
i forgot to mention this but now now, it finally hit me, i couldn't recall the whole thing after the WHOLE thing happened but come to think about it here's a small snippet i thought was sweet(?) xD well,to me it is. other fans probably get an awful lots of better fanservices from the boys D: /envies

so in the midst of the concert, (oh & btw the speakers & sound effects were killing my weak heart so thats probably i felt so pumped up till i almost blacked out in the sea of ppl halfway in the beginning D:) srsly,thinking back about it now,the sound effects were crazy. i wonder how i withstand 3 hours. :|
so anyway,when teuk were about 15cm away from meh, the hysterical screaming came itself. didn't know i had it in me :\ i actually screamed this much i couldn't even hear myself. probably because there were gazillion speakers around me so i was drowning in instead of standing out xD
anyway i knew my scream were lol-tastic because the girls around me start turning my side each time i let out a 'deadly(?)' scream & start to giggle 8D it was actually a pretty warm atmosphere,xD i swore i giggled at some of them girls screams too xD we were all superb high,rofl. so anyway i screamed my heads off like i was having a seizure or rather a competition with the damn speakers each time teuk appeared near us >:D
the first time he look/turned over our side(i think it was during don't don omfg i died at his hip thrusting) he noticed that i was spazzing+screaming like some nuts !@#$%$#@!~gah!@#dieitellyoudie$%!@#$@!^%$#@! & my voice went off tune(on crack! 8D) a few times as it was slowly fading due to the continuous screaming :P and as i was struggling with it (paused & scream,paused & scream,repeated that for 4732749 times) i probably seemed like i was cursing my fading voice cuz i went !@$%^%$#@!~@#$% each time my voice went off tune. dont worry i didn't curse haha
it was like /TEUUUUUUUUUUUKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK~!@#@!~!@#$#@!GAH!@#@!~!@#$#
Teeuukkkkkkkkkkkkk!@#$@!~!@# teuukkkk!@#$#@! teuk@#$#@ TEEEE$#@!@#$#UK!@#$#@!!@# (my voice faded like this lmao) i was about to give up srsly because i'm running low on battery lol but just than he noticed that & flashed a smile towards me-eye contact 0_0(CAN'T YOU JUST DIE?) he shouldnt have done that because i obviously went bonkers & screamed moreee but my voice was going all the way down,along with the screaming,i probably sounded like an old hyper excited grandma attacked by stroke/high blood pressure xD but omg HE GIGGLED. (C.Y.J.D ?) more of like a chuckle, xD i die tell you die. he was probably awed by the never-ending scream (even though it faded & went off tune many times xD) coming from my side. xD at least i think i was screaming until that point ;P im just glad i didn't pulled my hair like o!@#$%#@mgahhhhhhhhhhhh!!! cuz some girls were doing so. haha

the 2nd time he came(again !@#$$#@ this time i'm quite far from him actuali the girls were pushing like mad cuz he layed over & interacted with us(free handshake!)) but anyway called out his name like ~!@#$%^&^%$#@!~~!@#$%^%$#@ for the 372476473th time. i was about to give up again when he noticed me & my off-tune voice again(GAH !@#$%$#@!@#2!~) but this time,he was giggling like he wanna smack his forehead for pitying me screaming til off tune rofl XDDDDDDDD he was like 'adoi! this girl no voice ady dont scream liao la *headdesks*XD' at least his expression seemed so lol. well,if i didnt went crazy enough,it IS hard to catch his or just anyone's attention :P
so HE PROBABLY HEARD A CRAZY FAN GIRL SCREAMING HIS NAME EVERYTIME HE CAME TO ROCK PITT A AND HE FINALLY THOUGHT THAT HE SHOULD ACKNOWLEDGE THE CRAZY GIRL. hahahhaa. xP
so i learned a thing on spot & was able to use it on spot as well, to go as wild as you can,even wilder than yr limit (the best'd be until ppl think you had a stroke/seizure or something like that XDDD i wasn't wild enough tho :P)

TWICE! i'm 100% sure about this. but i dont effin recall this after that cuz after him was other members popping out from other sides & all so i only remembered that moment at that moment lol.
i didn't even spazz to those around me cuz right after his interaction with us i was busy spazzing the rest popping out here & there xD so kinda forgotten about that haha.
good thing it came to me last night, so i hv to write it down as part of memory ;D


damn , i should've been bolder in the concert :\
its okay, it just makes me tingle tingle & warm all over thinking that i was a part of the beautiful blue sea. still cant believe we made MIRACLE! ♥ im so proud of you malaysian ELFS. we're so gorgeous! XDDDDD

p.s it's probably lame & all but let me have my moment alright? ;D
p.s teuk hips. oh man,ah man. save me someone ;A;

pps. I HEART SAPPHIRE BLUE SEA MORE THAN ANYTHING~


MORE TO COME

pps. didnt know the night was sooo beautiful until i saw pics taken by fans who were @ upper tie ;A;


pics credits to me, py's blog, as tagged & etc~

Labels: brick me muahahaha, supershow ii mac 2010, teuk moment

THE CONCERT NIGHT!


this is from akp lol bcuz uploading takes forever DDDDD< ~!@#$%$#@! BUT HEY LOOK AT THAT BEAUTIFUL STAGE & CROWD *______* alright im jus gonna go straight to the point because i'm sure there'll be tonnes of fan accs out there.but beware theres gonna be a lot of self-spaziness & even made-up spazz languages that you wont understand so read at your own risk :D i didn't record much videos (what can you expect from my crappy phone camera -_-) but fck i should hv brought in a camera. silly me thought they dont allow 'em for real -__- they even warned us in the beginning of the show to not bring cams but the next thing i knew,once the show started,gazillion of fans started recording/snapping pics & sungmin even posed for a fan for her camera right in front of me WTFF XDDDDD NO CAMERAS? MY FOOT.
you just made a big joke out of yourselves, managers events. :D
& actually i just wanna enjoy the moment & plus im sure there'll be millions of fancams as well so i dont really mind on that xD

anyway after the concert guests performed(-_-) we waited for about half an hour more. then the lights dimmed. (the crowd was going crazy at this point we screamed & screamed & screamed like there's no tmw)
& the first person that rised up the stage was hyukjae..! /incoherent
but I died instantly, because teuk appeared RIGHT IN FRONT of me~*_____*
i was so blur because this is my first time(even worse because my first time is in the rock pitt) i had no idea where to look because it was so hard trying to figure out where the boys will pop out because for heaven's sake, there's 10 of them there.
i just followed the crowd wherever they turned their heads to & soon, i kinda adapted to it. & then i saw teuk's sexy back, eunhyuk facing R.P B, & pretty much the rest....
the "heart attack" came when i was just watching teuk's back & when he turned around................................... i was speechless. the rest were screaming. so. hard. but i heard no nothing.........
he's really an angel ♥ because he just shines. so fckin brightly ♥ there's this spark in his eyes,idek


see the difference between the teuk in teukigayo/variety shows & d teuk on stage? idk, to me theyre like 2 DIFF PERSON. one way hotter,one way crazier xD when hes on stage performing,he has this irresistable aura but when hes being crazy & all, you cant even tell if he could be charismatic xD

they started off with a man in love.
& before i continue, here's a very sorry incident i felt for everyone~ which involes me. alone.

i started feeling too rushed/weak in the sea of ppl in the middle of the song & i didnt had any water in 4 hours so my head started going bingeul bingeul(i swore, my vision got so blurry i really saw stars,you know the kind that when you spin too much in a ,say,flying coaster or space shot & you see nothing but everything turned into this small light that keep your gravity off your feet?) & you know what i did next? thinking it back,it was soooo embarassing & i felt truly sorry if i annoyed anyone T_T i thought i needed just a squat for a moment to chill down a bit but once i started squatting down,it lasted more than a minute & i couldn't budge off from the ground no matter how hard i try to remind myself to GET THE EFF UP, and
the next thing i knew, the rest of the girls around me started circling me & i think i drew an attention DDD:
they were kinda concerned & i even heard one of them saying if i needed to go to the emergency room but i was like ;no way im gonna miss this T___T; in my very dazed state. i kept signaling 'em i'm fine & i just needed a squat (it wasnt very packed until i had no space so i could actually squat down without the risk of getting squeezed/squashed).
so this is like how it feels coming close to a faint. horrible :\ once again i'm deeply sorry if i caused any inconvenience to anyone & made you feel uncomfortable or nytin D: idk. thank god i came back to my conscious 15 mins later. which resulting in me missing out twins,& some of the boys's solo, well actually i was hearing twins in the most unique way ever, squatting down, shaking my head rofl -__- i couldn't bear the loud effects of the upbeat songs all at once in a row so maybe i was not used to it-__- & REMEMBER, I HAD NO WATER FOR 4 HOURS SO THERE T___T

thanks to kw for getting the water bottle, sorry if it was inconvenient~
& to the anonymous girl who handed me a pack of energy bar(?) thing(something that you could suck from its packet,feels like sweet antibiotic liquid) , THANK YOU SOOOOOO MUCH.
i couldn't tell who it was, because i was squatting down with my heads down when a hand reached mine & handed me that stuff. i'm so thankful to you,whoever you are. it's a pity i couldn't thank you right there, but really i felt a whole lot better after consuming that stuff. or else,i might really black out(thank god i didn't srsly) so TQSSSSSSMMMMM ♥♥♥♥♥

and I TRULY APOLOGIZE FOR THE SMALL COMMOTION I CAUSED~ *bows* D:

idk, rock pitt A was KIND OF horrible D: perhaps the rock pitt seats were even better. sigh,but i think the teuk's smile up-close(& eye contact!) totally settled my day xD

okay, and now lets get going to the epic moments of the osm osm night~ :D

- DON'T DON & U. I FINALLY WITNESSED THE FCKIN HIP THRUST ♥ it was the moment i look forward most to,because the hip thrust thing is the sexiest dance from ANY idol boy band.
& the first thing that got me into sj(dance-wise) because
OMFG SJ+HIP THRUST = SEX BOMB. it's like a sex bomb exploded in front of my eyes♥
from my view i managed to see teuk,ryeowook,eunhyuk's hip thrust the clearest(gah i screamed so hard at this point lol)

- BLUE TOMORROW. i never thought zhoumi was this hot until i see him with my own eyes & darn, he was SMOKING. *_____* ♥ i think cameras did no justice to him. he's so fine in person. i never noticed this but he has such a smexy lower half(i LOVE his crotch, shit) & i couldnt take my eyes off it (maybe because he has long legs but omg they're the sex im pretty sure he could make a lot of babies xD)

- SUPER GIRL. this. omg this. I SWEAR SOME PHYSCHOTIC GHOST POSSESSED ME O___O
wy & i was jus next to each that time & we went nuts screaming along with the chorus (OH MY SHUPER GIRL NI SHI WO DE BABY GIRL! OH MY SHUPER GIRL WO SHI NI DE SUPERMAN! ROFL) throughout the WHOLE song, along with a whole loads of endless jumping too XD i had the most fun in this perf, no joke.


- PUFF THE MAGIC DRAGON. kyu ♥ there was a playful skit that was kinda ridiculously funny which involes dong,hyuk,teuk,min,hae,yesung,heechul,
& kyu,was standing there, singing so beautifully,handsomely with the boys playing the ridiculous skit behind, (xD)
KYU IS UBER HANDSOME IN RL. *___* he looks the most different off & on screen. damn,camera does him no justice as well T^T

- SHINING STAR WAS EPIC, the BEST MOMENT OF THE NIGHT. We turned off our blue lightsticks and turned on the l.e.d(s) instead. it was a huge success. when the song came on, i turned behind & saw the most beautiful view of stars shining so brightly & adorably beautiful in the sea of people. it was ROMANTIC(?) ♥ i looked back in front & there was kyu,right in front of me. i got a close view of him & he was there, sitting, singing admirably, looking more handsome than ever & i swear if i hadn't had enough self-control,i'd have swoosh up to the stage & give him a big fat shameless hug xD
I love their expressions at the beginnin of the song, when the torches were turned on - they were like O____O especially kyu,since he was facing us. i was too busy stalking him in front xD
IT TOOK HIM (& THE REST) PROBABLY 5 SECONDS TO NOTICE THE SHINING STARS FORMING A SKY OF BEAUTIFUL STARS & HE WAS SMILING (SO BEAUTIFUL OMG ;___;) & pointing at his finger (signaling the l.e.d(s) on our fingers) & asked for the fans just right in front of him for em' as well & HE EFFIN WORE IT ON HIS FINGER & SANG THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE SONG WITH IT ON. T_______T
he then started waving his hands too,along with everyone & at that point i almost had tears (okay i didn't cry now don't lol LOL)

after that i turned in front & there was teuk, sitting as well, in the middle of the front stage,(because he was facing right in front of the crowd he definitely saw the sea of stars & started feeling emotional) tears streamed down from his eyes(as expected. when doesn't ever that man cry in any of the supershows) T^T a few mins later i watched the screen instead because i could only see his back & i know this sounds wrong,but teuk crying is HOT.

after shining star perf ended, the boys came out for another perfs & !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SUNGMIN HAD THE L.E.D(S) HE WAS WEARING ALL 5 OF EM' ON HIS HAND!!! i screamed so hard the moment i saw him
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

- SUNNY. (was it sunny i cant recall rofl no i think its not oh nvm la -.-) heechul running around the stage with the flower that spins/fan windmill is TOTAL LOL XD i laughed so hard LMFAOOO. i was like telling ht "dear god he's so sampat(something like nutcase xD)" rofl which he REALLY is.
but in the middle he broke that thing so he crouched in the middle of the stage trying to fix it. gosh he is so concentrated on fixing that thing and ignored the choreography. all the members were dancing except him. lol

- CHU WAS KIND OF DISTURBING XD ♥ heechul & his sulli impersonations, pfttttttt :D
; ryeowook doing chu is something i'll never be able to forget~ his cute shy smile & little blush as he danced to it & bfjdfghdsgfshfgdgfjfgdj) i wanna pull him for a kiss fskjfhdskjhfdkjsfhkjsfhkjdshfkdhfkjsdd HAHAHAHAHAH

; & HEY, EUNHYUK IN STOCKINS & THAT WIG OMG THE WIG - I DIED. WAIIIIIIIIII.
- rokkugo. went hyper for this one too. (rokkugo!rokkugo!mael mael!) four boys lay down on the floor and shindong leapfrogged over them. ♥
-DANCING OUT. HAHA SHINDONG :DDD he kept coming to us & screamed "JUMP!JUMP!JUMP!JUMP!" & i hyperventilates each time he come over our side xD i was screaming his name so much in the beginning it was kind of one the reason i got so worn out i almost blacked out xD idk why am i so high on dongdong last night rofl xD

- ANGELA. i kinda missed most of it, ugh wtf i want the hyukshihae too DD: too many people crowding my view that time & i was too tired trying to focus on each & everyone so i just watched the screen instead. the rock pitt fans were like head-turning machines or something,haha. we were busy turning our heads/body lol because there were so many of the boys(10 is still a quite a number of ppl) & we just couldn't figure out where is one & one & so we spazzed so hard when one comes close to us.

- Wonder Boy. the boys were shooting water guns at everyone. eunhyuk was shooting towards us,(but i didnt get any of the oh so called LOVE shoots from him T.T) & he was about to head to the front to his next target when some fans who got shoot right before wouldn't let him go(several fans brought water guns) started squirting water at him & soon,he got pissed & then they were in a water gun fight lol. (this time i got a little on my head XDDD ♥ lol i sure love my height) his expression was the best thing ever ♥
it was kinda like "hey girls catch this *shoots* okay im done, heading front" & then we started shooting back @ him & he went
"AIKS WTF HOW DARE YOU DD<" it was the kind of very dumb version of the DD<" expression>he then started targeting us & shooting harder than before,before budging off when he realised he couldn't win over the 10(around 10 was shooting back?) V.S 1 game xD

before we move on to another row of spaziness lets chill things down with these xD


now stop staring at those donghae pics. no. STOP IT. okay good.

SOLOS
-spazzing so hard during Honey. OMFG i almost forgotten TEUK IS SEXY. probably because hyuk & siwon & hae blinded me,but FUCK TEUK IS THE SEX. *____* I DIED A MILLION TIMES AT HIS DANCE WITH THE FEMALE DANCER HE WAS DOING SEXY WAVE WITH. he (seemingly) kissed her at the end(i know you didnt,its just a head trick :P)
he's , a million times sexier/finer than i expected him to be. srsly. ♥____♥
in this case, i have to say camera does him no justice as well. he's so much hotter in rl. (i think its the awesome hair xD) but OMGAH I DIED @ HIS DIMPLES RIGHT THER. 0______0;;

-HENRY solo stage. when he came out, trust me i went BONKERS. ♥___♥ i thought he wasn't coming beforehand but there he is,rising up from the stage with his violin & do his thing & i was completely mesmerized~(his dancing T-T ♥♥♥)

the rest of the solos were pretty much the same.
(i missed ry's insomnia & ky's solo & ys's solo & bits of dh's beautiful solo too because that was when i started feeling a little dizzy. ;__;) FML


~RANDOM MOMENTS
- Most of the Eunhae moments involved slapping each other lol.♥
- During Don't Don, Eunhyuk,ryeowook,(ugh & i cant remember who else hate my brain D<) was doing the dance break at our side & i really had difficulty breathing the moment i saw that. ♥♥_______♥♥
-- there is this teletubbies toy that can walk. eunhyuk can't stop immitating how the toy walk. lol the slow motion cuties teletubies walk.
- DONGHAE AS AMBER DURING CHU. I'D SOOO BELIEVE IT IF THEY'RE RELATED XD
- I think this is fate. that most of the close views i came close to is teuk teuk & teuk xD not that i mind, because it was like a dream fuckin came true♥
- Heechul's level of sanity amuses me so badly xD he was CRAZY,not just the normal crazy,BUT he seemed like he just got released outta mental hospital or something XDDDDD not that its a bad thing,cuz he was one of them with the most energy & level of hyperness last night xD but my expression from 8DDD changed slowly to 0___0 when i saw him shooting this one bunch of fans(who probably shot him back xD) & he KEPT IT GOING LIKE THAT FOR AT LEAST 2 MINS W/O CHANGING HIS TARGET~ he must be 'bitch wanna fight k lets fight' OR SOMETHING ROFL.
EVIDENCE!

look at him pissed off bitchy expression~ oh the evil cat~ XDDDD

- Teuk eyes caught mine & he was sending out this smile i always see in tv(& even got bored of) but tonight it was just so diff, seeing it in rl it's just so different like i've never ever seen it before. each time he came over our side,everyone's busy snapping his photos & all but @ the moment,the girls around my area was very spazzy & holding their cameras & i was the only one without one ,standing there like a stone & i think i waved my lightstick a little too hard towards him(wtf i forgotten i lost the cap thing,which means the light coming out from the stick is shoning towards him probably kena his eyes poor bb im so sorry ;__;) but because of that lil careless mistake, i got him smiling at me so yay! it was just a 4-5 seconds eye-contact lol xD he was probably like "ooh hi girls here i come are you having fun -then wtf why is this light directed towards my eyes ouch it hurts ooh its you evil gurl >D" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA i kept shoving the lights across his face i could see the blue light going all over his face & thats when i realised & giggled lol.
- when one of them(i srsly cant recall who) threw a towel(?) our way, (i was so close T.T the girl who caught it was just blocked by 2 person right in front of me T-T) you know whats really embarrassing that time? all of the boys were actually in front of us in a line that time & a few of them (who were facing R.P A. ie sungmin,eunhyuk,hae) saw the huge commotion some of the violent girls made when they pushed this girl in front of me fuckin down to the ground & i got HIT so hard in the chest (& got someone's skull flying my way too) -____-;; SERIOUSLY THAT WAS FUCKIN UNGLAM, Y'KNOW WHY? BECAUSE AS I LOOKED BACK TO D FRONT, THE BOYS EXPRESSION CHANGED A LITTLE (like from :D to :\ or :| ) WHEN THEY SAW THAT VIOLENT ACT. OH DEAR GOD. NOW NOW,THE IGNORANT VIOLENT GIRLS, you just left a bad impression on them,serve you right D:< (hyuk was staring at the girl who snatched the towel with the worst way ever with the kind of >:| look, MUAHAHAHAHAHAH dai sei :P) well actually thank god i kinda fell down as well because if i didnt & FORCED my way to snatch the towel like the idiot girl did, i'd have got that >:\ look from hyukkie as well & the last thing i want from him is that "violent bitch"impression so that fall was kinda worth it,heee :DDDDD (on the other hand,maybe i should fall harder so ill get him to notice hahahahahaha wtf cuz min & him seems kinda concerned when that girl in front of me fell down SO hard because of some inconsiderate bitch :\)
- Teuk glancing here & there all over the stadium in awe during shining star & started shedding tears afterwards just tears my heart T___T i didn't know he was crying until shindong pointed to the screen. T.T
- HENRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. LIVE. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~♥


~ENDING.
Siwon pouring down water at henry & zhoumi's back HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.(hey reminds me of geng slipping down ice into heechul's shirt in FH T^T) POOR BOYS. they were stunned & dazed followed by shocked & OMFG D: because he came from the back & it was a pleasant suprise xD
henry's just >:D while zhoumi's expression was especially funny HAHAHAHAHAHA. it was like O___O + DD: = so D:O (?) LOL
hahahaha (that night i thought he looked like a serious C.E.O again(the glasses,brown hair) XDDDDDD)

all in all,it was ONE HELL OF A NIGHT. yeah,that'd be the best sentence to describe it from my p.o.v. (eff except for the almost-close-to-a-faint part i experienced EFF EFF EFFFFF) everything was crazy afterwards~ i guess it was because i used up too much energy shouting/screaming like some nutcase in the beginning.-__-
i was screaming on the top of my lungs & at that time beside me was this chinese girl she kept laughing each time i screamed (man i couldn't hear my voice at all so i screamed at the most i could & i didn't know it was that lol-tastic )xD she was hitting my shoulders & laughing so i tagged along & laughed too:D

Before the concert ended, teuk lead us in chanting "4jib DAEBAK", and also gave a shoutout to the fans from Thailand, Korea, Japan, China, Indonesia, and Singapore. Yesung mentioned America(i laughed so hard rofl) and everyone stared at him(poor poor boy lol), considering the fact that SS2 is an Asian tour XD

& tbh, i do have a few tiny regrets.
- i could hardly pay attention to their voices live(as i can recall kyu/wookie/min's) voice was the clearest ones in my head because i was busy running along with everyone turning each time they pop out right in front,behind,or just next to you. dear god it was driving me nuts :| - eeeps i cant remember pajama party perf because i kinda missed that one as well :\ too many ppl making their way through & i cant figure out where the boys were.

- CONCLUSION
~ HAE,TEUK,KYU WOOKIE,ZHOUMI,HYUK IS A GAZILLION TIMES HOTTER IN RL BECAUSE THEY ALMOST SEEMED TOO BEAUTIFUL FOR WORDS. :Q____________
I'm not being bias this time. these are the guys that deceived your camera BIG TIME girls~ ;A; trust me you'd feel that the camera had been lying on you forever fhfjkdfhjshfsjhfskfhkhdskjfhkhdfkjdshfkjdsh
- I think they'll remember malaysia for a good reason. at least we left an impression with the shining star success. =) teuk cried, this everyone can be sure of,(HAHAHA he was caught on the big screen that time he cant run away from that now can he 8D) & im pretty sure the rest shed tears too.

the biggest pity if the night should be unable to have a 100% full view of everyone on the stage & full view of their perfs(everyone were just squeezing through & when 100 heads turn to the same direction,you wont be able to catch a full glimpse if youre like super tall so believe it or not actually even with the insoles,there're still ppl taller than me so FML,F THEM ): ) (unlike those who were at the numbered seats,they get to see everything,the only diff is not seeing them up-close but i suppose that doesnt really count because the stadium is small) & at this point, i kind of regretted my decision to go for the rock pitts~ sigh.
but hey that's teuk's beautiful gaze along with the dimples sucking in probably just 15cm away from me worth every single thing~ & dong ets not forget dong he was the closest to us besides teuk. remember, JUMP!JUMP!JUMP!JUMP! ? XD oh wait hae came over too. he was kinda teasing us :D AND HYUKKIEEEE. i swear i wanted to touch his fluffy hair so bad ♥ siwon layed for a while. kyu was in front during shining star so it was all good because i could see him so clearly.

i dont remember wookie, yesung, min & heechul laying over D:
fkjdhkjfhkjhfkjdhfkdsjhfjdhfkdjhfksjfhskdjfhsjfhshfskjhfdsk i couldn't stop spazzing over last night DD:


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{03.21.2010} Diary Entry

2010.03.21 Sun 01:56

..overwork..

..I’m throwing up everything I eat..probably due to stress..

..even have enteritis*..looks like I lost a lot of weight..even my muscles..I’m worried..

..crap..

* Enteritis

{03.21.2010} Sidebar Update

..2010..

..Malaysia fan..

..I was really happy..

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Source: 박정수 미니홈피 (Park Jungsoo Minihompy)
English Translation: Chrissy @ TwELFs.com

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i'm really happy too you sick man♥ get well soon~

P.S pic spam should be in the next post cuz this post is awfully long alr D:

p.p.s & maybe this is because i was in the rock pitt, but was there really 15,000 fans present? because the stadium seemed small & all so idk D: but if it is, AWESOMEEEE!!! ♥

p.p.p.s hyuk waved to me? did he? some girl told me so & i was like 'are you sure?' damn i only recall him shooting water okay wait i think i rmbr but that wave was like directed towards my area with a few other girls with the hyuk banner so maybe there free wave haha ♥

P.P.P.P.S 4JIB DAEBAK! 4JIB DAEBAK! 4JIB DAEBAK! ♥

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Labels: fan acc, super show II msia 2010

i really had fun today(particularly because i was the one going BONKERS haha)
but it was great really. although it's just the two of us.

i really wished i enjoyed every single day like how i did today~ because this is me & i dont get to unleash it so often if im fairly new to ppl/awkward around 'em. but then life isn't about all the fun i guess :|

anw when we were walkin round we(actually ME haha) saw this one (hawt hawt)amercan dude in his teens messing around with his younger brother. IDK HOW OR WHY, I COMPLETELY SPAZZED LIKE A NUTCASE~ haha idk wtf he's soooooo cute kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~@!~!@#$%^&^$#@!~
done spazzing rofl. i'm just like that i guess,i cant contain it not like im being bitchy or nytin but i was just in a 'up' mood so everything seemed cute to me~ haha

lunch was awesome. trust me i didnt even need to had dinner because it was mad contenting~


kimchi fried rice was soooooooooooooooooo gooooooood ♥(licked everything off after snapping this haha). pajeon was great too but you know whats the big deal here? idk if im cursed or sumtin but this had happened before & it was juz lol. i jus dunno why i HAD to order so much food all at once when im having korean meal~mayb i was being greedy but by the time i started feeling full i couldnt finish everything & efff it was soo good but i was so full i kept laughing & the waiter was like girls gone mad or something idk rofl.
& i kept saying to him, "its nice BUT- (the but there doesnt mean it was BAD,instead i meant; but i couldnt finish everything cuz i'm really full now & again it was so good dude rofl


HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAH. HE MUST BE LIKE WTF THIS GIRL XDD
and THIS

to this lololololololololol

oh man this stuff WAS MAD SICK -____-;; ill never eat it again. we didnt finish it either. P<
so this taught a lesson we learn everyday dont be deceived by the cover guys D:

we were going to head for the movies afterwards but it was packed in the waiting line & there's nothing interesting to watch & plus theres no way im gonna watch alice in the wonderland so we went karaoke instead! -which was CRAZY. HAHA I THINK I WENT CRAZY FO REAL LOL
i was totally forcing her to sing & giving her the death glare rofl was it that scary haha
you know i have potential to make it as a ghost in a horror movie rofl(ppl say that to me a lot even my dad lmao -__-)
we sang lots gaga songs & boy was i crazy . i kept kicking her with my feet across the sofa every once in a while xD ~ hehe. btw lady gaga hates me for killing her song~XD

you know,i think for me to really loosen up with just anyone we first need to be approached in a crazy way~lol idk.

p.s im skipping the airport stalking tmw. gotta work on my oneway fan letters(which im still NOT done with ><) and basically just get prepared for the concert(haha im not making any sense) but yeah im still trying to get something done last minute & wtf i think i SHOULD SO READ because i hadn't this whole week of holiday(which feels ridiculously short) ugh i hate not doing anything about my dying brain |:
bye guys i hope i don't panic too much & faint in the sea of ppl this sat :D

p.p.son & to soompi-ers who read my fics, tqsm for the kind words~i know who you guys are. *WINK WINK* 8D youve heard enuf 'you're awesome' shoutouts from me so this time imma just say one thing,
I ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ EUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU HEHEHE~^^V

now, to everyone who knew me in rl:


i'm just this one person who is very lacking & do kno that i'm trying my best to reach out. even though i keep failing on that, do know that even if i'm quiet & stays still, deep in my heart, i'm always sorry & thankful towards everyone who came across me~ ♥

Labels: small confession

IT WAS SUCH A FUN TWEETING SESSION LAST NIGHT. (i went cuckoo) ^^V


i think i went outta space for a minute there~i SOUNDED LIKE AN ~DESPERATE ALIEN~ HAHAHAHAHAHAAHHA 8D

i totally SPAMMED his timeline but i can assure you everyone else was doing just about the same thing so my luck was to no avail~ T^T too bad there's no such as thing 'twitter chill pill' else i'm sure he'll be able to control the flow of tweets xD

but THIS is the highlight of the night~




p.s i think i've been too nervous for the concert this sat that i'm really beginning to feel unwell~ no lie. (idk why guys maybe its just my stupid hormone acting up again T.T)

what was i thinking?

i'm still a little saddened by geng's absence this coming sat. after all boy's the one whom i truly adore(which reminds me,hey! he's my first crush y'kno? :Q____)♥ that's something that hasn't changed(my respect towards him),no matter how often i change my bias. and kangin.. that's an awfully long break. :| pft,dont even get me started on kibum. >:|
when will they be 13 again?

tbh my faith for kpop has shaken ever since jay's incident. we all witnessed how naive can fans be & it's just pure lame & immature. idc if i offended anyone with this, but will you guys just wake up (offers a free splash of water) & finally SEE THINGS? this is life yo, life itself is shitty & (possibly) dramatic so expect a shitload of shits thrown your way when you try to interrupt someone else's life with the possible worst way ever.
it is dramatic- in a shitty way. never vice versa. life is no beautiful happy ending sweet as cotton candy as those potrayed in dramas.

i guess kpop does teach you a lot of things,after all. things that you have yet to learn in rl, things that you wish you knew earlier, things that act as a prevention-before-cure, things that slap you hard in the face about the cruel reality of life(if you're still too young to experience now you know), things that say a lot about one's dream & how it can be crushed by wrong marketing or how cutting words merely written online can drive someone to the suicidal point. & many many more. there's a useful lesson(that you can imply into rl) behind every shit that happened. & for those shit-just-got-real-incidents, i feel terribly sorry & am greatly impacted as well. but it usually took me just a few hours to calm down & get back on rl because dont these things happen so often its worthless to mourn & scream & cry & wail & idk, what next? hang yourselves just because your favourite guy just caught influenza or because he ran into an accident or because he's dating someone or because he took drugs etc? kpop is no fantasy or beautiful fairy tale, guys. stop freaking out on every single thing. chill the fuck down, little fangirls >:|
no one is perfect and yes the idols maybe are but they can't possibly be perfect EVERY SECOND OF THE DAY. get over it. jeez.

because i'm almost a grown up now. (i still feel a little insecure at times because its cancer's nature to protect themself from getting hurt even if they hv a hard shell because it is breakable when you step on it)
however at times i still feel relatively new to kpop because for heaven's sake,think of those who hopped into the bandwagon way before you did. (for most of us, TVXQ/SJ popularized kpop) but for those who've been in even earlier, ie the H.O.T/FTTS/SHINHWA days, what have they all been up to? work. money, marriage. kids.
yeah :\ so i really really appreciate kpop now because i know i'll be one of them in the future, many years ahead, but still time flies so just live the moment to its fullest y'all. & when the time comes, all the idol groups in the 21st century will be replaced by a new batch of idols & by that time,we dont know kpop anymore because we're all old xD
& yay taemin & dongho & the 43284247 idols of my batch will age the same time as i do too, xD haha why am i so delusional? xD

& then it was when it hit me deep, in 2009, all these young debutees rolled in like moneh(super yay for advertising/cf/magazine companies bcuz young is good :S) & popped out of nowhere. so all of a sudden, you have a bunch of these young amateurs who's still in their 9th grade shaking their butts against your screen. (hey what i LOVED mister) not referring to mister's booty shake because it is effin awesome, but rather you know those 'ugh-imma-bitch-dance-my-ass-in-your-face' kind?
um say what, yeah you can nvr get me liking a girl group with the name RAINBOW (ugh)
but that's not the main point. the thing that bugs me the most is the fact that NONE OF THEM LOOKED THEIR AGE. age can be deceiving, my foot. i say looks>age. you can go around handing out lollipops adult fliers & not have someone question your age.
because the next thing you know,the one dancing their ass off on the screen is probably a year or two ahead you, and you go 0___0

that said, i don't have a liking for the younger batch,sorry. i tolerated the 93'er batch but i remember how speechless & dumbfounded i was when SHINee first debuted & omfgwhat taemin is what, my age? he sure grows a lot in a span of 2 yrs though.
even if 93'ers is just next to the youngest batch of the idols. sigh. i can assure you there'll be a 95 96 97 er batch coming soon, its just a matter of time XDDD

& because i still have this 'freeze' expression on each time i stop & thought(hey she's sooo fierce,then omgwhat she's 18/19)? , there you go~
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just look at these people, people, now tell me do they shock you in the slightest way possible?
EACH TIME I LOOK AT THIS CHART I FEEL SO DECEIVED & INCOHORENT & EFFED UP AGAIN&AGAIN&AGAIN. -__-;;
ngl, Luna shocked me big time. she's my age gdi! idk why i couldn't believe it either.. :O
& jiyeon wtf jiyeon. she's so fierce in 'i go crazy because of you' i cant tell her & hyomin apart. is. a. 93'er. ouch.
as for seunghyun & amber never could have guessed their age either.
and hyuna,sigh. jz a year ahead me. yeah. we all know that. fml >:|
not that seeing eli & kevin in the 91'er line is helping either :D.(but this is OSM SRSLY) (bcuz what, i'm legal to date them in my dreams, so stop saying i'm illegal xD)
CL. 91'er. uhm,okay........
MINZY. 94'er. dear god, all-time conspiracy. :O

all in all, im fine with the rest innocent-looking-ones being a head ahead or below me but thats not the same thing with the IMMA LICK UP YR SCREEN WITH MA SEXY POLE DANCE & HEY IM THE BADDEST FEMALE IN SEOUL GTFO (haha,cl anyone? xD) albeit they're barely legal. or rather, in my fucking age territory. lol wtf is wrong with me? 8D
F WORD ABUSE MODE ON.

but yay most of my bias play by my age territory~ puahahahahahㅋㅋㅋㅋ

on a side note, if i were to date only my batch & the younger ones, you know i can never choose between taemin & dongho. do i even have a choice,really? xD
i got over this long time ago but i cant help to be bothered at times xD
then again my metabolism & growth hormones has been insane for quite a while now so maybe i was being slightly sarcastic with these kids xD

andd now you've got kids like taemin wondering what the heck happened to the whole 'i'm the youngest of them all when i first debuted omg yay' but now i'm just glad he doesn't lay a fist on dongho xD of course he wouldn't, that kid is cotton, remember? & plus dongho knits so he is born that way, a natural cutie pie uhm CUTE BEAR. (i feel my hair standing as i say that last word lol a lot better now haha)

so anyway you've got a 15 year old licking up your screen & killing her booties with excessive shake(once again I'M NOT REFERRING TO MISTER PLS BE UNDERSTANDING LOL KTHX) & the perverted old ahjusshis are jizzing their pants & if a 15 yr old(please,just let me strengthen that once again) can be labelled as EROTIC, idk what can't be. (sry i like you minzy but pls cut down the sexiness :\) you're younger by just a year, still you wouldn't want someone younger than you by a year to pole-dance in front of you right bb? ^^V

but now. look, we have an idol band with an average age of 17 & you call that okay?
well, i was about to disapprove but because they're talented as hell so i gave them a chance. & wtf they're from XING. i knew kevin but these kids were new to me! i suppose i haven't been paying much attention to the 5th gen of xing..

all in all, i still stick by kpop because this people who ACTUALLY made it are the ones who has limitless passion & patience stored in them & a number of them probably didn't even realise just how strong they are. its the invisible strength, & because they're so strong & tough & unbreakable its insane,you're able to feel the insanity in the air- idk.

these days i get worn out in the fandom. which i really do. 3 years already & i'm just not as indulged as compared to the early days anymore. the longest span of time i foresee myself fangirling is until i hit 30 & that'll be it. man idk :D i guess you can go on long as you want as long as you're always young at heart~ LOL XD

p.s. there is no offense meant to anyone mentioned in this post.
well, i think i'm kinda making fun of some of them but hey it's just a fun rant so i dont give a sheet. :)

Labels: kpop rant

i finally caught up with Chance on twtr today (but jeez peter's tweet session rarely clashed with mine T.T)
and i shamelessly tweeted back~~ ♥ but of course,i find out that majority of the ppl he replies to are really NOTICEABLE tweets. so i decided to make mine a little a more noticeable too &




i sho am glad THAT caught his attention.~ hey we all have something in common~ BLACK&WHITE ftw! (x
ive been trying youngsky & peter a lot i guess i annoyed everyone in my timeline xD bah. damn i'm no good with this whole twitter thing(and i always missed their tweet session BUGGER! D<) jeeeezz peter why wont you reply to me! ):
AND my luck is usually bad so T^T

Labels: one way is da shizzz ♥, onewaychance, twitter

-> john park is no longer in A.I . sigh, he was the only reason i watched this season. still, good luck bb! & 사랑해요!! hahaha shamelessly saying that -.-
god i wish i watched season 8! why oh why did i miss last yr's season ;(

-> over here! lookie ma awesome wallpaper! junhyungggg ♥ T.T why must you do this to me ;-; *bawls* i said i'll stop crushing here & there but i guess i'll hv to learn the hard way. or better yet, lets just not do this. y/y? XD



-> FML i need SHOCK, like right now. GIMME TEH SHOCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.
♥♥♥♥♥ i got rid of my album addiction ages ago but this. i must get my hands on this piece of awesomness no matter what. $37 only! watch me as i lay my hands on you bb<3 style="font-style: italic;"> ppl pls dont be perverting kthxbye ;D


fml i can't contain the awesomeness. THIS BURNED MY EYES. ;_; my eyes are burning gahhh

who can't be running away with the micky mouse towel? oh doojoon you bamf.♥♥♥ UNFFFFFF~

-> and look! this guy from D-NA owns the infamous arms of sex. eeeppp, i feel like a pervert >D
ahh its been a while since i last fangirled. feels good to be back on track~ still, fuck that spm shit >:| (not that i'm studying either, ha. IN YOUR FACE SPM! ) [T.T]

-> the first monthly test is coming up in like less than 3 days & i think i did a great job in showing my ignorance (clap people clap,humiliate my ignorance plz) because obviously it's gonna unleash itself in the results . yeah y' know what. i don't care eh eh eh eh eh

-> i don't understand my need to struggle with myself over some butthurt shits. yoga is not even helping dammit. i only became more & more aggressive day by day as i try twice even harder than the rest to prove myself worthy. i guess i should consider myself lucky & rethink that thought back because one girl broke her ribs in my class & i feel so sorry for her because it was just such an uncalled accident~
though my instructor said i showed progression & she was suprised at my 'fierce determination' but she just doesn't know i'm actually not really feeling the theory itself but instead exchanged it with the bad fire burning in me & thus,the 'progression'. i still can't let myself go & 'free'.
you try doing that when life is turning its back on you & nothing is going damn right~ then again, i'm 'good' kid-turned-'bad' so you can't blame it on me. or maybe you can. idk, do anything as you please ):

-> i feel like time is rushing me yet i can't keep up & i'm chasing time instead & its chasing me back & omgad lets stop chasing each other alright? y/y? why'd you chase me? & why'd i chase you?
fml i'm not even making any sense. my brain has officially malfunctioned. /dead

all this unnecessary rush & all them craps won't stop rolling in D:
but at the end of the day, IT'S JUST ME.


so, FML.