quoted from: OTD

kangin's voice is so beautiful :')

omg Kangin. ♥ ♥ wait, that's Kangin, right? I'm hearing Kangin? *silently freaks out*

SERIOUSLY CAN'T HANDLE MY COOKIES RIGHT NOW, STILL CRYING OVER KANGIN'S SOLO (?) SONG, I'VE BEEN CRYING ALL NIGHT

i really love kangin's voice too - it has a certain quality to it that i've never heard before


i will miss you so fucking much

come back soon kangbear. ㅠㅠㅠ ♥

lol i swear this must hv been some kind of coincidental teacher dedication/conspiracy week. just look at my few other posts oh god xD

raining rly heavily.. just like how my feelings are today... of sorrow & sorry & great loss...
This is from the bottom of my heart.

the only accounts teacher in our school are leaving this coming july to continue with her studies yada yada. wait.... whaaaa..............t? it doesnt even matter anymore cuz just the fact shes leaving leaves me with the biggest stab of guilt & slight depression. (as if im not both ENOUGH already T____T)
because she didn't just simply mean a 'account teacher' to me. she's so much more than that.

i can't describe the special bond i felt through her...
when she first announced the news i was emotionless. i almost felt nothing. not happy not sorrow not even a bit of emotion was flowing through my soul. stoned? yeah. i guess i wasn't taking it seriously. and just when i thought i've even forgotten about it, it finally came to me. this is when it hits me. out of the blue. somehow i'm unable to see her leave like that.. i srsly cant rmbr cuz my memory's been failing me but she's been teaching me for 3/4(?) years.could hv been 4/5 years straight if it wasnt for that 1/2 yr i got another chinese teacher for business back in f3 xD
Deeply... though i dont say it.. nor show it... I truly adore her. She's one of the best teacher around. im not even gonna use the world "probably" bcuz she really is. my definition of a teacher in my book depends on two main elements; professionalism complete with attitude. when youve got both congrats you're a good teacher. unfortunately-this, not everyone can do it..not even one single teacher can be compared to her. they've got nothing on her. /shrugs/

but once she leaves.. it'll be a great loss to everyone as well as the school. no doubt. she's almost irreplaceable. i learnt a lot from her,though my acc is still like shiat cuz thats truly my own problem,lack of motivation and passion.feeling sorry cuz i didnt do well in my previous exams even when shes so awesome wif her teaching so someone shud really slap the bitch outta me. sigh. ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ

i still rmbr when she first came in for class back when i was in form 1..that was the first time i met her she said i was glaring at her and that she felt threatened rofl. xD of course it was her own version of mean joke la. 8D she wasnt so good back then... (in terms of teaching, dull and boring and not to mention she was classified among the lazy teachers haha) but now she's the best teacher you could ever ask for. the rare qualities of teachers nowadays... this is how a teacher should be, in the first place. not ONE who walks away ignorantly when you try to talk something to her. PFFFFFFFTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. KNS WHEN I THINK ABOUT THAT BIATCH I'D GOT SO MAD TO THE POINT I'D CUT A BITCH DDDD< CURSEHER &^%$#@!@#$%^&*&^%$#@!~ ROOAARRRRR. -___-;;;;
anyway i dont know what am i gonna do without her. she had impacted my life, little to huge.
we all need her. admit it. /sighs/
im glad i've met her in life. to those who didn't, its your loss. you've just missed out knowing such an awesome person /weeps/ TvT

one thing i can tell you...



.....it won't be the same without her.

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This week has been hell with teachers.

first off, my moral folio had been MISSING and I wasn't even informed at the first place cuz she only informed me the very last minute, as ignorant as she can get.
I did that crap and passed it on and her table just a day before the due and idk how or why or what for some who fucking knows reason either she never bothered to check the name list beforehand and informed me first thing right after the due date that she never received my folio or she just FUCKING LOST MY EFFING FOLIO.
i'm not even gonna say her name, cuz now even her name annoys the crap outta me. DDD<
so pissed off with her omg. how can she do this to me. what kind of teacher walks away i talk to you nicely you passed me off like that. PFFTTTTT she had this suspicious look like i'm fucking lying in her fucking face WTFFF ISTABYOUCAN? WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN. OH SO YOU DONT TRUST ME. pftt so much of a moral teacher. you suck to the core. i have respect towards the elderly but this is what i get in return. she's pissed me off big time. and now she's telling me all the nonsense crappy excuse by being ignorant. i've never felt so insulted fuck her. i freaking just lost my folio and she can act like nothing has ever happened. and its not even my fault to begin with.
i'm absolutely making an pointless effort tryna explain to her when its not even my effin fault but i guess she just cant be bothered. it can't get more obvious than her uninterested face.
Teachers are getting more & more biased and less PROFESSIONAL dont you think so? In my case it totally is getting that way.
MOTHAEFF UNPRO HOW MORE UNPRO CAN SHE GET.
if i get a fucking 0 for the project screw her curse her DIUUUUUUU DDDDDDDD<

up to now i still can't figure out anything because who's innocent in this? (*&^%$#@@#$%
yeah pn. seo just you wait i'm gonna file a complaint if you do this to me. I SAID IT I DO IT. DON'T FUCKING MESS WITH ME. /FIST/

Dear Anna Tan Tong whatever it is,

Please crap less and like actually, get started on the real deal like finally?
Because your words>actions.

I'm cool with you, but the way you do it annoys the hell outta me. tsk.

No offence. & yeah I'm being disrespectful. Sue me. PFFFTTTT.

Thanks.

Love,
woman of a few words.

it took me one whole night to calm the freaking down xD still in spazzing mode actually, i just need to spazz here and i'll go prepare for school tmwT.T(arggggg school!!-0-)

i wrote a bloody long ass fan report but decided to draft it bcuz ohmygod the language wasnt understandable at all haha..too much self-spazziness so thats for me reference to self-indulgently enjoy. so here's a short one. the night was too awesome to rmbr anyway, words dont do enough justice, its all in my head i cant bring the awesomeness out!!!!!

about perfs all those.. they shall stay amazing in my lousy phone cam & my head^^ so im only gonna yap bout lucky moments i got during the one to one(?) approach on stage wif the boys..
so heres me highlightS of the day^^...
firstly guess what.. after allowing every1 to go first..i was practically the last fan on stage!!! HAHAHAHHA...(bcuz i'm nice like that bluek xP) when i was on the stage i was too nervous i first turned behind and asked the fan behind me;

me: 'do you wanna come first?:)'
fan: OMGEE rly??? YEAH TQ!! :D
me: ^^

then as we get closer again.. i asked another fan behind me if they wanted to exchange places..and it went on from one to one... HAHAHHAHAHA!! FRICKEN FUNNY OR WHAT LA LMAO. (but in the end i totally got an unexpected lucky moments xD *wink wink_)
so ace,knight & vampire fans got to choose which member they want to take the cd from..at this point im kinda like went apeshit blur lost panic bcuz idk who to go for OMGEEEE!!!! yaya the indecisive me decided to unleash itself at this important point im like so kns-ed stuckT_T
at this point i caught eli's eyes and he was waiting for the next fan approach and im like :O then he was like :D directly at me omg i swear i peed my pants*_* and buay paisehly i was like BARRHHHH I COME TO YOUS K /wifthatstupidhopefulface/
i was alr stood in front of him & he smiled again and said hey theree!!hahaha from the eye-contact notice earlier XD then handed the album to me i touched his hands hahahaha the hand contact was so ironic cuz okay la self-acknowledged me haz rly small hands so he's kinda amused when he saw me hands he went :OOO then OMGEEE HE ACTUALLY HELD my hands(in very mere seconds but ZOMG) then eye contact again no words he's still with his epic :OOOO HA! EXPRESSION wakakaka giggled (bloody guards not at his side that time, i was taking my time rofl) the moment i got the album from him..i figured out i wasnt gonna waste any more time & be quick based on what i see from the girls ahead me encounter wif the boys..and those bloody guards...i fucking wanna chop their heads off k...=.= even my sis was like these guards are so fricken annoying gdi -__- so anyway when he gave me the album...i was so planning to blurt out the ironic line 'you make me tingle tingle' sentence to him..but....instead...idk what the fricken went wrong with me...

..........

me: "YOU SPARKLE." (haha so twilight-ripped roflmao!!)
him: ㅋㅋㅋ thank you! -does heart sign-wink;)-

(:D mr.sexay's seductive skills nvr fail to work huh... ♥)
me: :D
him: (at this point he looked at me & opened his arms)
me : o.O WHA---?? *frozen*
him : -!!!!!HUGS-
me: O___O uwaaaa....

after the hug i haz that 'damn!T__T' look cuz i was totally speechless & frozen ahahahah apasal lu? XDDDD he was sleeveless...*___* i'm SOO not breathing at that time..hahaha..worse.. I GO TURNED BOMBASTICRED T-T!!!!! who wouldnt!!??
..abs zomg felt muscular arms 4 the first time. am tagged at his arms bcuz yaya short hands cant hug back serve me right? =.= but bcuz of that......bcuz of the short hands..me hands tugging his muscular arms...... ahhhhh....... he's huge.... i mean compared to him i'm like a ant or sth...lol wha!!?? XDD excuse me im not making any sense now 8D wif both hands i'm wrappedOMGEE can you say i totally felt the first real protected hug? but gah this is nth compared to those who got bridal-style hug,titanic hug,group hug among the vip/lucky fans during the games sessions..=.= okay but this...i did not force it....or was it a reward..nor ask for it... he volunteerly offered one... im still literally flying at the thought of how natural it was.. im like describing some cinderella fairy tale or sth... lol but it was rly pretty on-spot, natural and comfortable...kk..^^ he has good arms!! hahaha..after tat man i was so red alr..he smiled again..pengsan.... during that hug xander next2him chuckled cuz it looks very wrong lol... =.= i should hv worn extra shoe-lifters rofl..

-after the hug-

me: hfdshfdskjfhksj gibberish (i was trying to clear my mind to think of sth to say in the midst of a frozen state) you're not da zhu (from the 8enews interview previously xD) no diet k?^^
eli: AHH! ;) (he grinned for the 473672th time *___*)
then hes fricken patted my head.. and grin again....

KAO............ah srsly that man of a few words but more actions on that day...if theres any fans behind me it'll be the death of me...actually no...i dont hv to worry much bcuz those fans who got fan-camed wif the boys durin the game sessions on stage should worry more.....XD photos is not allowed durin the fansignin/album handling so yeah.... phew... *wipessweat*
but if i go on any longer wif him i'll hyperventilate like mad for sure.. i'm so tahan-ing not to hyperventilate y'kno?XDDDD

totally exchanged a precious conversation wif him since no fans are behind me nymore.. see what i mean by being patient & tolerant? totally worth it!XXDDDDD

next when i saw kiseop very unconsciously i blurted the word uljjang! out omgosh...hehe i stalked that dude during his uljjang days via pre-debut k ;P
passed by kevin,caught his eyes,(no time to waste) so in a very fast speed light tone, gibberishly, i blurted out 'i stalked you since your XING days!'he had this 'O' look...like 'yeh!? :OO'
i guess he didnt really heard what i said..but he so totally heard the word 'XING' so he's like OMAIGAWD....this touched precious expression..-- TvT HAHAHAA.. then he proceeded to give me a quick hi-5...^^man he's like a dolll*___*
im starting to doubt whether kevin is a girl in disguise. that voice sweeter than cotton candy wtffff
& dongho has dis stunned expression when we made eye contact.liek "im ur nuna bt my size jus doesnt prove it rofl" he has small hands too. like me!!! WAKAKA
lastly soohyun that bamf.. mr.fanservice title so belong to him..
when i was about to leave i shook soohyun's hands the last and he said one thing.. 'ah kajimmaT.T' wink wink" !!!!!! wakakaka..you know i think i just did a very smart act by allowing every1 to go first.. see imma nice fan...bleh..;P it was totally worth it^^
but since im biased like that...


p/s: in case youre wondering, i won the tickets from 8tv a day before the fanmeeting so yahoo thanks 8tv me love yous!!!!
p/p/s: pictures later. mothaeff laptop kept hanging hang here hang ther so du lan mad tired now =.=
p/p/p/s: SCHOOL STARTS AGAIN. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~ T.T

Labels: UKISSME 1ST FANMEETING 19TH JUNE 2010 KLCC PLENARY HALL

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This must be some kind of god deciding to pull a "2-days-before-my-birthday-prank" :"D
PLS DON'T DO THIS TO ME T___T BRIAAANNNNNNNNNNNNNN OMG.
never in a gazillion years would i have thought mr.sexayy himself would have step foot in this country /tearsofjoy/ TvT
Know what? I'll go. I don't care even if its a fucking million. ROFL. This'll be the best early suprise for my not-so-sweet 17th ;A;

Why, I'll never be able to look straight in his eyes omg. Even if I did so when teuk was right in front of me, I won't be able to do the same for Brian. He's too much of a breath-taker/ mind-blower for me to handle. Firstly he'll take my breath away with that angelic voice live then blow my mind to mars or jupiter & I won't be able to think straight. in a fucking reality. When i can't think straight I do all sorts of this out-of-my-mind-your-expectation crazy things like vibrating continuously xD. This aint funny. I'm serious. I do fucking vibrate. It just depends when.
Now I just have to decide on which ticket to go for. is an extra rm130 worth it for a handshake? why handshake? gimme a goddamn early bday hug la hahaha! /shudders/

speaking of which, the same thing applies to B2ST. on the 26th. I sure hope to go for this as well. AHHHH. why the sudden troll of kpop events streaming in one after another? /tearsofjoytearsofpainlikesunshine&rain/ no rly, I'm happy but why this year of all? /shootsorganizers/


D: ! I was sick for the past 2 days right after the taylor's CLIOD thing but i was actually already slightly feeling unwell on that day itself but beared with it so maybe it somehow got worse since I was in an air-conditioned surrounding most of the time so ))): I'm better now though. Slept through the whole afternoon and it was raining somehow I feel better. y'kno, a lazy person like me hates going to the doctor for little things like this. Though I felt like dying ytday night cuz i was practically breathing through my mouth since I had a runny nose and it got so blocked to the point I couldn't even tell the taste of the food i was eating! It felt like I was chewing on sand or some non-existant substance when I had my dinner last night! Gosh. I went bonkers. Even 7-up tasted like some gasy drink with no fucking taste. Roarrrrr. Thank God I'm better now.

I'm very unconsciously craving for the cocktail we made the other day. can't get that taste outta my mind ;X;

Labels: brian's mini showcase live in malaysia 2010

so we attended the College Life In One Day program today.

1. We're bored.
2. We have nothing better to do. srsly.
3. For fun.
4. Just go lorh. got what gazillion reasons somemore!?!? xPPP

the one i attended today is Hospitality,Tourism & Culinary Arts. And must I say, I had the best time ever. Though the ppl who actually turned up are not as much as i expected but its all good. (i thought its gonna be hectic as heck guess ppl just prefer to lay on the bed on a beautiful monday mornin uh)
starts at 8.30am so yeah I understand. .__.


aight so today i'll cut some slack & let the pictures speak for itself k? i crap too much anyway.
x)

drive-thru because we were runnin outta time cuz I woke up late *&^%#@!@#$
^ keke i'm not alone. nanny nanny poo poo. ;P from now on i just hate coffee. thank god it faded off after a while~

the program started off with arrival of students & registration @ Lecture Theater 12. we thought were gonn' be oh so late but thank god we arrived just in time. we even happen to meet our classmate there! I didn't knew she was coming =) anyway it was good to see her. guess we're the only three from our class who actually turned up for this. TEEHEE. there were a few school mates, but less than 15 of us that is. lol. so then after registration supposedly we were grouped according to the activites on that day beforehand already. I was in group 4, which may I say, is freaking awesome because it has the best part of the acitivities among the rest! group 2 & 4's the same package only with swapping the two activities that will take place ;) shing was in group 2 ish! kar man's in group 3. group 1 & 3's more to hotel management/dining etiquette. honestly i find that boring );






we worked pretty well but a little disaster happened when we mix the raspberry & sprite together in the shaker & shook it hardcore. it sorta burst. I wouldn't wanna imagine what'd happen if it was coke instead of sprite. the thing would just explode and before you know it the wine trolley & floor is a pool of unglamness. totally unglam when you shake the shaker cuz its supposed to be cool haha & that thing spills out gas liquid out of nowhere rofl. the process was messy as heck, but the end product was awesome. maybe we should learn better how to handle with the shaker next time. x)
they tasted the blue one(which really stood out imo) & all of them make this same pulled back expression AT THE SAME TIME OMGLMFAO. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAAHHAHA

i liked it (;
well, which type of alcohol do i hate anyway!?
wait.. BEERS. YEAH EEW. BEERS SUCK AIGHT. COCKTAIL FTW~

Lunch. blah blah blah. We went our own ways again ); Head on to Manifestation for the next programme. if its any good, I learned how to make mayonaisse & thousand island har dee dee!(gay word, dont ask me i learn it from someone else keke)







the chef was rly rly inspiring and he talked bout how he fought for his dreams & passion despite being in pure science stream and how his parents rejected what he wanted & said he's never gonn' go far with this path. He proved them wrong.
theres one thing he said, hobby & passion is two different things. Hobby is something you like to do NOT something you'd be doing for the rest of your life simply just because its your hobby. you cant say "oh i like cooking so I wanna be a chef hooray!"
...you dont even know if youre good at it because as simple as it is,it is just your hobby.

Btw, in our batch, i spot one dude who looks like a replica of death note's L. The same hair,same style(clothing-wise),same STAREE 0___0 okay not exactly 100% larh but still. srsly. The second i saw him I was ACTUALLY picturing him sucking a lollipop just the way L did it. lololololol
so well, I can't say for sure this is what I've decided cuz my aim today is just to experience more things to dig my hidden interests & skills in it. I'd say for the basic like this,I'd most likely do part time in this area. Still don't see a bright future ahead yet. Basically i just go & have fun & just have a good look & yeah free lunch LOL XDDDDD but this is all pretty much awesome, I had a fun time. Knowing new people from different schools, work together, it was all comfortable. I'm always nicer to strangers idk why ;-; Maybe i'm just not comfortable with school since everything went apeshit and is getting worse its breaking the feeling.
Granted that the environment of the campus is really beautiful & it's pretty darn huge too~ During lunch was supposed to meet up with Shing & KM but I was lost for a bit there so i went apeshit ROFL. you know how easy I panic 8D



P.S everybody's vain haha. xD they were snapping pictures all the time. snap Snap SNAPPP! CHIK CHAK CHIK CHAK FLASH FLASH FLASHH~! ;) HEHEHEHE :BBB at times they really looked like professional photographers who came for a interview with the college or smth rofl.
P.P.S supposedly there's a continuous part of yesterday's program today. The tourism part. But we were tired and I developed a rly bad sore throat so we skipped it )=
P.P.P.S should I go to the business CLIOD & SAM program?