Okay how do I start how do i start?(lol repetitive mode iz on) As much as i'd like to admit i'm no unloyal i really am not. I don't crush on one dude and change my mind the next day i find a cuter dude THAT often. It does happens among fandoms but like i said, fandoms are fandoms, so i'm cool with it. Its fun really. It's like a maze in search of your ideal type...like step by step closer before finally finding out your real ideal type. Dudes in fandoms are probably extinct in rl, so dont even dream. Fandoms and reality should be separated. Idols are humans too. Although fandom is reality itself, but i cant seem to take it too seriously because i've long stop day-dreaming when its time to be srs.

( finally getting in the topic )
I'm watching Ka Ho Yuet Yuen (Moonlight Resonance) right now on 8tv (yes yes i know i'm so yesterday, i still rmbr my friends bragging about this series when i was in form 3 and spoiling the whole series for me T.T cuz im sorta astro-banned rofl that year )

And so you should know Chung Zai.
Then you know how you kinda slowly heats up from head to toe before yr cheek burns & turns red when you see someone so close to yr ideal type that you cant take your eyes of off??? damnnn.

At first he's really just kinda cute and i was bored so i looked him up(this is what harm does to you when the tv & internet is in the same room) and the first search result that came up was his twitter page. As soon as i went in i immideately assumed its a fan-made account or some wannabe dude. BECAUSE WTF HE SOUNDS LIKE THE HYPER ME. AND NO I WAS SO SURE HE'S NOT IN ANY WAY ENGLISH-RELATED. FML RLY. YES NOW Go look up his twitter and you'll know what i mean. @vincent_wan (its dead now but yeah)

BECAUSE HOLYFUCK DOES HE TALK LIKE THESE CUZ IF HE DOES I'M JUST GONNA HYPERVENTILATE EVEN MORE AND THE POSSIBLE CAUSES INCLUDE:
- Grabbing the nearest items to me and squashing them to death (i rly wish i had a unicorn with me nao hahahaha)

SO YEAH. I'M A VERY DETAIL-ORIENTED PERSON BCUZ NO MATTER HOW HOT ONE DUDE IS IF HE'S DULL AND UNINTERESTING ITS A TURN OFF RLY. I think its the language & writing style. Its the x factor. The literary side of a dude. Dont you think its really precious?
To top all of these off HE'S A JULY 15TH BB. NOW THATS..UGH♥ By now it should be clear that i have a huge thing for someone whose birthdate is in my zone~ AKA The CANCER family~ LOL
I find myself constantly looking at people's birthdate first whenever i view their profile, you get the idea.

Couldnt believe my eyes because i'm still a cultural difference noob. I dont go out of the country that often(can you believe i actually have been to Korea when i was actually 3? what memories are you asking me to rmbr now i'm no einstein dammit!!!!!!!!!!1 was so pissed off when i find out bout it cuz i cant effing recall a thing -.-;;) I don't know much about other countries that much and how the language style differ from us even if we are capable of speaking the same language.

But yeah. In fact he sounds like a chick cause yknow how mostly dudes tweets are just all laid back and cool? *coughpetercoughchancecoughyoungskycoughbrian XD* HAHAHAHHAHAHA (well at least so far in my case ive nvr met any dude(celebs at that) who goes;-

" GLEE : Soundtrack Vol.1 out today..!! whaaaaaatttttt !!!! - anyone as
excited as i am!?! (ME! ME!! ME!!!! GAHHHHHHHHHHHHH *_*)

now for a comparison i present to you
an example of dude B with a slightly diff tone:

"Glee Soundtrack Vol.1's out today. Cool. Look forward to it. "

SEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!????? not that accurate of an eg but still you get the idea!!!

I'm saying this because ZOMFG HE TWEETS LIKE A FRIENDLY CHICK ALL FANGIRLY WITH THE OVERUSE OF EMOTICONS XDDDDD Then yknow how some people dont even use emoticons? 0-0 But no he goes all out with his jfhdsjfhsdjfhdsfhds bouncy fluffaayyy tweets xD

Because i'm a stalker like that, i finished going through all his tweets(i wish i rly read each & evry single of his tweet but fuckyeah they're all spazzy happy bubbly america josh type of tweets it all sounded the same tone rofl)

I'm glad I aint the "kpop is ALL my life" kinda freak anymore because messed up priorities are messed up. I know my stuff. But I still roll in & fangirl once in a while. Its all good. I think its because of the whole newbies and kids going gaga over abs & autotunes. Whatever happened to the old kpop? The new kpop sucked. In a ~good~ way. I suppose I don't hate it for sure cause we all know it sucked so beautifully that we still dig it no matter what.
If you've been reading, you'd guess i jumped into the bandwagon back in '08 when I first fangirled SJ. Well it used to be that way. Until I realized my first encouter with kpop is back in '06. (i actually realised this fact ages ago) the more i think about it the more history i actually recalled.
When it all started in '05 with DBSK. Excluding old school kpop(which I discovered later & fell in love with the past & what they did when i was 5 rather than the present. Period.). Back then those weren't kpop to me. In fact, what is kpop, if you ask me? I have no idea then. Those were just mere good music I found & my first playlist were flooded with RAIN (you had no idea how much I fangirled him, I Do & Its Raining is still my jam♥.) BoA SE7EN FTTS Wheesung - especially BoA. Rmbr Amazing Kiss? I have no idea when that came out but it was my first girl crush track. And then there were friendster. Which died a tragic death because of facebook. lol.
I created fs in '06 and flooded the whole profile with BoA/Rain music videos. rofl. I kinda regretted deleting the acc because shut up imma sentimental ~old memories~ creep like that ;-;
Then my first computer died(T.T) and I had a change of 3 computers before changing to HP, where my playlist now mostly contains mainstream kpop like everyone else. I still listen to oldschool/indie/jazz/underground kpop the most♥ Speaking of which, go listen to J.ae people. The music softer than cotton candy. Or even Navi. Check out her cover of Hot & Cold. anddd 4MEN or Brown Eyed Soul. Dangg. ♥
When i searched through other old profiles under my e-mail(I've been using the very one & only same e-mail since '06) through the old social networking sites that are kpop-related , I'm suprised myself to see the date i actually encountered kmusic. '08 is just the exact yr i decided to do real fangirl and involve.

But yeah. Lately have you seen girls going "Changjo oppa~~~♥" that is creppier than ahjummas talking about loverholic robotronic in carrefour. idk. you decide which is worse :\

No. Just no. Baby fangirls are creepy. ;X;

now for some rl-
Going to UM for a BM seminar tmw! Kinda wished they did that for other sub actually. Like History or Accounts. Or even Maths. Because lol most of them are going just because this might be the only chance we actually get to step foot into UM, the first & oldest uni in Malaysia.

When i try to talk about it , even here- I get this sharp headache, as if my head refuses to think. It suffocates & begs me not to. THAT hurt. more.

p/s: Is this what its supposed to feel when you're on the verge of hitting outta high school soon? When high school seems so short, there is nothing to carry with you when you leave? When there really isn't anything to reminisce. When your worst time of life happens during high school and you happen to not leave with happiness?


p/p/s: I still believe what I believe. Even if its hurting me. Period.
p/p/p/s: DNW girl groups or whatsoever. BoA needs to be here, aight?
p/p/p/p/s: BoA & miss A conquered my repeat list its frustrating ;X;

met a friendly tourist^^ her friend was running away rofl we're like paparazzis(actually the boys went up to them first & start flirting around rofl we just slip our chances in) xD

from chloe's cam~ i din know shing & her took with their cam at the same time XDD even the tourist used her cam! haha nice trade

As you sit in this pac-man like thing you go on a wonderful ridee~~ like those bumper cups you play in s.lagoon~~ lol srsly this stuff spins around a lot

.vs.
~blur~ 0__0

Look! its a HOT astronout!

P/s: In the midst of group shots bla bla we spotted 2 english guys (ok larh very cute if not spot what rite lol) walking pass the same bridge and they stopped right in front looking all amused & :DDD took pics of us!! HAHAHAHAAH i've never tried harder to look calm/cool/not so spazzy & all drooling when they did that lohh LMAO. ALMOST wanted to stop them and ask for a pic bcuz they look so friendly(srsly all the tourists there are so kind & all smiley) but ZOMGSHY TT_____TT i know im gonna blush damn hard so bb cute ang mos~~ T.T
p/p/s: And i wont stop syok sendiri with all the ang mo tourists (guys at that) i shall now go to the box of shame. sayonaraa~~

p/p/p/s: And of course as always someone always had the classical v pose. In this case you know who it is. >D