LOVE YOU HATE YOU;


i love hating you. i hate loving you.
do u know how much that hurts?

love is the world's most hurtful thing.

do u agree?



unable to find happiness in this complicated world ┏



unable to cry because it hurts too much ┏┏



unable to find love in this life ┏┏┏



only able to cry myself to sleep every night.
what is the point of all this?

life is meaningless without love & care.

no matter how much u enjoyed alone, in the end u still need a companion.. a friend.. a partner for life..

as for me..

this life is great because of super junior.. because of the happiness & strength i gain from them..
other than that.. there's no reason of happiness anymore..

i just need a whole new environment. migrating perhaps? no, i'm still too young for this..
the only way.. student exchange program. yes. i've thought of this since very long time already.
if there is a chance i would not hesitate to take it.
i'm really tired of this life. dear god, (although i'm a atheist) but do u hear my pray every night?
although im not sure if u really exist.. but i still make a wish on you to give myself some hope.

life surrounded by people who wears a mask to live isn't life.

i'm still waiting for that time to come.. the time when i'm grown up & able to make decisions on my own..
Time.