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HAPPY ANNIVERSARY/BIRTHDAY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY FIRST LOVE <3
WTH HEECHUL
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUNHO <3
CHO KYU HYUN
ONE YOU :)
Hongki you're such a sweetheart to chase after won...
oh won bin aja aja hwaiting ~
The 18th HighOne Seoul Music Awards took place on 12th February in GangWonDo GoWon Stadium.
The big winner to the night will have to be group WonderGirls - they won both the DaeSang along with 3 other BonSang awards.
Following their win, Wonder Girls leader Sun Ye stated while crying, “It was just our 2nd year anniversary (10th February). We are so grateful for this huge honor. We’ll reach further and try to do our very best. We’ll consider this an award from the Korean public who wants us to gather our strength and work hard. We’ll work even harder.”Other members So Hee, Ye Eun, Yoo Bin and Sun Mi were also in tears, “Thank you for such a big honor. We’ll do our best to show you a better side of us in future.” This was the Wonder Girls 2nd Daesang award for Nobody after winning song of the year at last year's Mnet KM Music Festival.
The Wonder Girls thus became the 2nd girl group in the history of the High Seoul Music Awards to pick up the Daesang after Fin.K.L did it in 1999This is their first time winning a DaeSang awards in just the 2 years into their debut.
:DDD The girls are back ! i missed them , a lot. i cant wait for their U.S debut. wonder what concept they're going with this time. whatever it is, i bet it will be gorgeous ! =D
but wow, im so suprised at the fact they won over dbsk & bigbang ! not that i didnt want the boys to win, but i always hoped wg would take away a daesang for at least once. woohooo~ they did it! i love them! hahahhahha. but wth, leader cries again T__T no, all of them cried T^T
i hate how my tears will flow out too whenever they cry. too much love, too much love.
Alright,despite the good news(which is the only thing i can be happy of today) i had a bad day today. totally screwed up day.
i hate hate hate this week. i get upset so easily on the smallest issue but i tried to be patient as much as i can. some ppl jus need to push me to my limit & make me explode. i feel so angry even thinking about it. i cant help but to feel boiled up.
i hate how they are so insensitive towards other ppl's feelings.& i dont care shes reading this but i doubt she wouldnt since she dun hv a blog, which is a great fact or else i'll be setting mine to private -.-''
i always had this mindset - if u wanna gossip/critic someone, do it all u want i cant stop you its ur mouth anyway but nvr do it in front them.
i dont mind if this happens behind me but please, not in front of me. do u know how much it'll hurt others feelings ?
no u dunno.bcuz u fcking dont giv a damn about my feelings & tease me whenever you feel like it.hv u ever thought i'll be in bad mood at times too?do u really think i can smile & laugh happily all day long?u nvr know when u've hurt someone.u nvr know how rude u r when u flash ur rude stares when u see ppl who r underrated to you.
no i dont hate you, i love you as a friend,i know nobody is perfect includin me,so i tried my best to accept ur weaknesses.but today was off my limit.u were far too much.
despite that i was seriously in bad mood before you make things worst.i tolerated.. i endure.. i tried not to take it seriously.. but today i hate the way you make fun of me although it may seem a joke to you..u always embarassed me in front of others.
i wouldn't mind so much if u were more understanding.if i hv a weakness, do u need to announce it to the whole world? are u really straight forward or careless?
i wished you'd think before you speak. i hate & love you so much. but as a friend, im disappointed of you. im tired & sick of ur attitude. yes, i hv an attitude problem too, yes i ignore most of the time, i admit i wanted more space alone.yes call me a loner all u want.
i hv no problem with that. but would u pls think through before u say something that might hurt someone? if u didn't know it'd hurt, i dont blame you. i cant blame u anyways bcuz im more sensitive than you think. a small issue will stay in my mind for the whole day, & i feel so angry everytime i think about it.i dont like to keep things in my heart, but u make me so. i had to keep it deep in bcuz i hv noone to talk to about this.even if i talked to you about this, do u expect me to say..
"pls change ur attitude i dont like it"
"i hope u dont do it again"
or
"can you stop behaving like a biatch!?"
... No, i can't. i'm weak. i dont hv the courage to speak it out. bcuz i'm me. i tried my best to ignore stupid things & be good for myself.. treat myself better. i do this & that for myself, to improve my own flaws.. to be better-for myself.
i dont give a damn about what ppl say about me anymore. they dont freaking matter! yes go say im cold say im thisnthat.. go ahead. afterall you, who know me in real life, will nvr see the warm side of me.you will nvr feel how passionate & a good soulmate i can be.. bcuz u faked yourself too.
do u expect me to care for you when u dont even giv a damn about my feelings? when u didnt even try to understand me? i tried to go closer to you but somehow you put a wall between us.
u fckin judges everything by their cover i dont mind bcuz im like that too i bet everyone is like that but do you really need to JUDGE EVERYTHING BY THE WAY THEY LOOK EVERY SINGLE MOMENT? by their backgrounds & differences from you?
are you such a person?
& there's one person who doesn't friggin think before she speak too-i might as well call her BRAINLESS. YES I DONT CARE. I DONT EVEN TAKE HER AS MY FRIEND. SHE'S JUST A BIATCH WHO GOES AROUND FOLLOWING THE QUEEN'S TAIL & UNDERRATE OTHERS. WHAT DOES SHE THINK SHE IS? someone who is extremely awkward, make things awkward for everyone, who friggin fakes herself i wanna vomit everytime i see her. im fine wif her as long as she don't upset me. as long as you didn't upset me, im good to you. i can forgive you but not your words. unless u take them back. no u dont hv to apologize, just take them back. but if it has deeply left a deep scar in my heart, im sorry i cant forgive you. my heart wouldn't do so even if i want to.
i dont like her. i tried to avoid her, bcuz she'll come up saying stupid things in front of me everytime i see her. hey you brainless(well u wont be reading this though since u dont hv a friggin blog), i'd just like to say one thing - think before you friggin speak.
p/s : (btw i used lots of 'friggin/freaking' whenever i really mean something. dont get annoyed)
im fine as long as u dont come disturbing me, firing me up. im myself & i like it that way. its none of ur business whether im this or that.
IM STILL ME. I'LL DO WHATEVER I WANT ACCORDING TO MY OPINIONS ; MY FEELINGS.
WHATEVER I THINK IS GOOD FOR MYSELF. EVEN IF U THINK ITS BAD. I DONT CARE ALRIGHT WHO ARE YOU TO JUDGE MY LIFE ANYWAYS
best friend? bullshit. everyone is just so selfish. i want to move out of this country & move to a new environment. i cant take it anymore here. no, actually to look back at my words, i dont hate my country all that much, not as much as i hate my school. I hate the ppl who're being extremely chio & think they're the best/overconfident til they underrate others/til they think others is just plain rubbish.
one day, when they face failure, they're going to feel worst than i do right now because they've been thinking THEY'RE OH-SO-GREAT for ages , every second of their life n all of a sudden the world came crashing down on them. i know that no matter how much i hate a person, if i happen to see their weak & depressed side , i'll help them too. i'll pull them out of darkness too.
thats how weak is my heart. i said mean things here but i can't in reality. even if i hv the courage to be mean & loud to these ppl in reality, i'll end up crying over my words alone. despite how much they might hv misunderstand me , im too tired to explain anything. let it be.
i won't speak up until they've pushed me to my limit. thats me. even if i hv some dissatisfaction towards you, & even if its pretty obvious to you, i wont say mean things to you-UNTIL U STARTED THE FIRE.
I will be patient.. i'll try to change the topic, i'll tolerate what u said.. but if none of these works, dont blame me for being cold. thats when i hv decided to stay away/keep a distance from you..
since im being seriously truthful today, i might as well let this out too.
i can't communicate with my dad. my family. i cant freaking communicate with them! & im fcking shedding tears just typing a line of this i hate myself !!!
why?HOW?SINCEWHEN?
i don't know.. i love them so much. im so jealous of every happy family who hv close relationships with their parents.. i admit as i grow up i tend to be less affectionate about this but now, when i look back at my life.. although it has only be 1 yr plus when this prob started out.. no matter how much i have, the missing thing is the thing called L-O-V-E. family. dad cant freaking understand me, my life, the way i live it, what i really want,my dreams.. mum too.i dunno how long more i can go on without love & support from them. all i need is a word of bless, a sentence of wishes & concern,
"how are you doing in school?"
"was it hard? "
"you've worked hard"
"don't try too hard. we support you no matter what"
"are you okay/fine?"
"what's ur dreams?"
instead all i got is, nothing. no supports & concerns. i did everything by myself. i know they love me but they didn't know how to show it. same goes to me. i don't know how to i express it too..
what should i do? ignore & just cry everytime i think about this & bury myself in music?
im alone, most of the time. home, school. i tried my best to cheer up, i did it anyways. but when it comes to being alone, im emo. i cry for no reason. i laugh for no reason.
thats why their music became so important in my life.
they're essential bcuz its the only thing that can bring me out of this painful world.. even if it doesn't last long. a medicine to my injury.. the only thing that heals my scars.
the only thing that can gives me strength & support. before i feel real love, again.
but i guess i hv endure it for now.. despite my fragile heart, i hv to learn to forgive & forget.
i hate how sensitive i am.
p/s : am feeling slighly better after writing this post. thank you my blog for being there when i need you ♥
i hate hate hate this week. i get upset so easily on the smallest issue but i tried to be patient as much as i can. some ppl jus need to push me to my limit & make me explode. i feel so angry even thinking about it. i cant help but to feel boiled up.
i hate how they are so insensitive towards other ppl's feelings.& i dont care shes reading this but i doubt she wouldnt since she dun hv a blog, which is a great fact or else i'll be setting mine to private -.-''
i always had this mindset - if u wanna gossip/critic someone, do it all u want i cant stop you its ur mouth anyway but nvr do it in front them.
i dont mind if this happens behind me but please, not in front of me. do u know how much it'll hurt others feelings ?
no u dunno.bcuz u fcking dont giv a damn about my feelings & tease me whenever you feel like it.hv u ever thought i'll be in bad mood at times too?do u really think i can smile & laugh happily all day long?u nvr know when u've hurt someone.u nvr know how rude u r when u flash ur rude stares when u see ppl who r underrated to you.
no i dont hate you, i love you as a friend,i know nobody is perfect includin me,so i tried my best to accept ur weaknesses.but today was off my limit.u were far too much.
despite that i was seriously in bad mood before you make things worst.i tolerated.. i endure.. i tried not to take it seriously.. but today i hate the way you make fun of me although it may seem a joke to you..u always embarassed me in front of others.
i wouldn't mind so much if u were more understanding.if i hv a weakness, do u need to announce it to the whole world? are u really straight forward or careless?
i wished you'd think before you speak. i hate & love you so much. but as a friend, im disappointed of you. im tired & sick of ur attitude. yes, i hv an attitude problem too, yes i ignore most of the time, i admit i wanted more space alone.yes call me a loner all u want.
i hv no problem with that. but would u pls think through before u say something that might hurt someone? if u didn't know it'd hurt, i dont blame you. i cant blame u anyways bcuz im more sensitive than you think. a small issue will stay in my mind for the whole day, & i feel so angry everytime i think about it.i dont like to keep things in my heart, but u make me so. i had to keep it deep in bcuz i hv noone to talk to about this.even if i talked to you about this, do u expect me to say..
"pls change ur attitude i dont like it"
"i hope u dont do it again"
or
"can you stop behaving like a biatch!?"
... No, i can't. i'm weak. i dont hv the courage to speak it out. bcuz i'm me. i tried my best to ignore stupid things & be good for myself.. treat myself better. i do this & that for myself, to improve my own flaws.. to be better-for myself.
i dont give a damn about what ppl say about me anymore. they dont freaking matter! yes go say im cold say im thisnthat.. go ahead. afterall you, who know me in real life, will nvr see the warm side of me.you will nvr feel how passionate & a good soulmate i can be.. bcuz u faked yourself too.
do u expect me to care for you when u dont even giv a damn about my feelings? when u didnt even try to understand me? i tried to go closer to you but somehow you put a wall between us.
u fckin judges everything by their cover i dont mind bcuz im like that too i bet everyone is like that but do you really need to JUDGE EVERYTHING BY THE WAY THEY LOOK EVERY SINGLE MOMENT? by their backgrounds & differences from you?
are you such a person?
& there's one person who doesn't friggin think before she speak too-i might as well call her BRAINLESS. YES I DONT CARE. I DONT EVEN TAKE HER AS MY FRIEND. SHE'S JUST A BIATCH WHO GOES AROUND FOLLOWING THE QUEEN'S TAIL & UNDERRATE OTHERS. WHAT DOES SHE THINK SHE IS? someone who is extremely awkward, make things awkward for everyone, who friggin fakes herself i wanna vomit everytime i see her. im fine wif her as long as she don't upset me. as long as you didn't upset me, im good to you. i can forgive you but not your words. unless u take them back. no u dont hv to apologize, just take them back. but if it has deeply left a deep scar in my heart, im sorry i cant forgive you. my heart wouldn't do so even if i want to.
i dont like her. i tried to avoid her, bcuz she'll come up saying stupid things in front of me everytime i see her. hey you brainless(well u wont be reading this though since u dont hv a friggin blog), i'd just like to say one thing - think before you friggin speak.
p/s : (btw i used lots of 'friggin/freaking' whenever i really mean something. dont get annoyed)
im fine as long as u dont come disturbing me, firing me up. im myself & i like it that way. its none of ur business whether im this or that.
IM STILL ME. I'LL DO WHATEVER I WANT ACCORDING TO MY OPINIONS ; MY FEELINGS.
WHATEVER I THINK IS GOOD FOR MYSELF. EVEN IF U THINK ITS BAD. I DONT CARE ALRIGHT WHO ARE YOU TO JUDGE MY LIFE ANYWAYS
one day, when they face failure, they're going to feel worst than i do right now because they've been thinking THEY'RE OH-SO-GREAT for ages , every second of their life n all of a sudden the world came crashing down on them. i know that no matter how much i hate a person, if i happen to see their weak & depressed side , i'll help them too. i'll pull them out of darkness too.
thats how weak is my heart. i said mean things here but i can't in reality. even if i hv the courage to be mean & loud to these ppl in reality, i'll end up crying over my words alone. despite how much they might hv misunderstand me , im too tired to explain anything. let it be.
i won't speak up until they've pushed me to my limit. thats me. even if i hv some dissatisfaction towards you, & even if its pretty obvious to you, i wont say mean things to you-UNTIL U STARTED THE FIRE.
I will be patient.. i'll try to change the topic, i'll tolerate what u said.. but if none of these works, dont blame me for being cold. thats when i hv decided to stay away/keep a distance from you..
since im being seriously truthful today, i might as well let this out too.
i can't communicate with my dad. my family. i cant freaking communicate with them! & im fcking shedding tears just typing a line of this i hate myself !!!
why?HOW?SINCEWHEN?
i don't know.. i love them so much. im so jealous of every happy family who hv close relationships with their parents.. i admit as i grow up i tend to be less affectionate about this but now, when i look back at my life.. although it has only be 1 yr plus when this prob started out.. no matter how much i have, the missing thing is the thing called L-O-V-E. family. dad cant freaking understand me, my life, the way i live it, what i really want,my dreams.. mum too.i dunno how long more i can go on without love & support from them. all i need is a word of bless, a sentence of wishes & concern,
"how are you doing in school?"
"was it hard? "
"you've worked hard"
"don't try too hard. we support you no matter what"
"are you okay/fine?"
"what's ur dreams?"
instead all i got is, nothing. no supports & concerns. i did everything by myself. i know they love me but they didn't know how to show it. same goes to me. i don't know how to i express it too..
what should i do? ignore & just cry everytime i think about this & bury myself in music?
im alone, most of the time. home, school. i tried my best to cheer up, i did it anyways. but when it comes to being alone, im emo. i cry for no reason. i laugh for no reason.
thats why their music became so important in my life.
they're essential bcuz its the only thing that can bring me out of this painful world.. even if it doesn't last long. a medicine to my injury.. the only thing that heals my scars.
the only thing that can gives me strength & support. before i feel real love, again.
but i guess i hv endure it for now.. despite my fragile heart, i hv to learn to forgive & forget.
i hate how sensitive i am.
p/s : am feeling slighly better after writing this post. thank you my blog for being there when i need you ♥
