a walk down the memory lane

IM back, just in time too because im not late for sj's 3jib preoder. thank goddd.

the thing first i did when i online i went to akp & k bites & starting to see sj's 3jib news floating around everywhere, it made me so high & excited that im still smiling & anticipating.

SERIOUSLY, I HV VERY VERY VERY HIGGH ANTICIPATION FOR THEIR COMEBACK THIS TIME , BCUZ THE FEELING OF MISSING THEM IS KILLING ME SLOWLY...

I SERIOUSLY LIKE THE SONG TITLE, "SORRY SORRY"

what do you think? =D

it makes me feel like they're apologozing to us (elfs) that they're making us waiting for 1 yr & 6 months.. well for me, i waited for about half a year. so imagine for those who hv been supporting them ever since their debut, how long hv they waited? 1 yr & 6 months. ~~i could die waiting that long.~~

& im going to BUY EVERY VERSION OF THE ALBUM. EVERY.
iduncare if i starve to death or what all i know is i must do my job as a fan. i mean, as an ELF.
& i checked the price ranges from the blogshops i usually order from, all the versions total's are around RM255-RM420.
yes 420. certainly not a small digit. & im going to wave goodbye to my $$ soon... very soon.
but they(sj) matter a lot to me, more than words can say. if u think im lame then fine.. im lame & i dont mind being one. as long as i hv their music, them, & everything about 13..

& this is their teaser photo :

its going to be awesome, the boys never dissapoint.

&u know what.this is close to what i imagined out of curiosty. i love the title so damn lots. "sorry sorry".im even trying to sing it in every tune/way LOL wth

OMG. OMG. OMG. SORRY FOR THE RANDOM OMG BUT OMFG, I FOUND MORE NEWS.

THE TEASER WILL BE RELEASED TODAY!! YES TODAY!!! YES ITS FREAKING TODAY!!! IM SO GLAD I CAME ONLINE TODAY!!! SJ AH, HERE I COME~~~~~ LOL~

enough spazzing. i will run out of breath if i spazz somemore. im not kidding, i was catching my breath when i read their news. i was too hyper & excited im speechless for words & only able to catch my breath like a physco .

i received some items during my hiatus...

@ 27feb.

whoooohoooooo~~~ it arrived late but who cares~

RIGHT... im really bored right now, so since i had nothing to do i'll flood this post with lots pics from the pb.. though u might hv alr seen it.yes put down ur knives & weapons for those who want to kill me right now

i tried hard not to watch the dvd from youtube b4 i got my copy.. finally i got it-though its alr march.

forget how beautiful is him, just look at him. CAN U SRSLY NOT GO ALL THE WAY "AWWWWWW~~~" ?! lol wth

& we hv kibum for march ♥

hyukjae is seriously gettin cuter & handsome day by day~~
i love him! XD

myOUR princeeeeeeeee~~~(!!) XDD
always mysterious.. just the reason i love him!

& of course there is more... but these are the ones that are really good.

flip flip flip~~

anyone spotted heemin ? XDDD

OR HANCHUL? XDDD
hae go get hyukjae i dontwant triangle love alright XDD

mrs ma siwon aka sherlin, ur husband looks very hot. its burning me XDDD

ryeowook is exceptionally beautiful/hot/charming in the pb~~ not that he's not pretty usually, he is , just that he kinda stands out/shines in the pics.

he shines *bling bling* mysterious yesung & i love him. he can just put off any sad expression & its total fanservice.

total 134 pages ♥

THIS IS LIKE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL & REALISTIC PHOTOBOOK I EVER SEEN & HAD.
I seriously need a box for this.. i need to keep it safe & not even the slightest scratch can land on its skin.. once i touch the book, i feel like the happiest person on earth.i shed tears as i flipped tru the pages carefully, scanning their pictures with care every single second..-it struck me again how much i missed them.
& ive watched the dvd.
their trip to japan looks fun although they had the photoshoot for the book..
& the pages are made from super fine & HQ quality paper materials, which is so drop dead gorgeous . the paper quality is really fine & thick that even water spills on it, it will still be fine. ah yes, water proof.
the calendar just kills me. the pb is really thick to be heavy.
everything, from the photobook to the dvd to the calendar is PERFECT! THIS IS TOTALLY WHAT U MEAN BY QUANTITY THAT COMES WITH QUALITY. everything is just so awesome. totally the best of the best!
from now on this book will be my no1 treasure. even if one day my hse burns down, im going to bring this along with me. no matter what happens. dont laugh. its not funny nor pathetic. its not the cash i spent for the book...nvm... forget it..
you wont understand.

THIS IS JUST SO WORTH BUYING!

in short, THE PHOTOBOOK IS HEAVEN.

&&&&....

....................................... Sometimes i really can't believe myself. the girls are really succesful in turning their antis to a fan~~
heck i dont even love them all that much, certainly not as much as i love wondergirls,but Gee was suchan great hit & soon i got so addicted to all the tracks.

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school is a killer, really. ive chosen my path & im happy with it, but im not 100% happy with my life yet.. i know what i want & need at the moment. ive planned my future ahead -
2 roads to be exact.
the 1st path-a simple life, just a life whr i can do something i love, earning for my boys .. & family.
the 2nd path-a ___ life. this one-im not going to reveal it until i prove it. until.. i hv what it takes to fulfil my dream. this one, is like a dream, or maybe the unrealistic one. but then... im not a practical person... im a subjective one. i believe in dreams & i'll chase after them.

nevermind, im still young & hv plenty of time. im jus not so happy with my secschool life.
it has lots ups & downs each day.. i can be laughing & joking around, i can also be totally quiet & antisocial at times.. yeahhhh, MOODSWING.
THATS RIGHT. my mood swings're getting worse these days & sometimes they even vary from time 2 time.. for eg, i feel sucky in the morning & then im all energetic in the afternoon.. sigh.
u know what? perhaps because there isn't really anyone who was by my side. im too tired & fedup of fake smiles or snobs..
& seeing some ppl who're originally good trying too hard to be bad.. i feel really really bad & pity for them. i mean, why try so hard to be bad? why try so hard to be a spoiled student when ure actually not that bad after all? sigh, friends influence is crazyyy.

at this stage of life, i wished i hv man ling beside me whr i can tell her everything & she'll comfort me..
but then, she has gone to japan. i didnt even want to think or be reminded or even talk about this bcuz i still remember how hard i sobbed alone at the corner without letting her know & send her off to the airport with big smiles~~ i miss her but i try hard to be strong bcuz i promised her i will . if i break down in front of her, im just a useless friend..i know she wants me to be strong but its hard.. i know i cant rely on her forever for we'll go our own ways anyway.. & maybe lost in contact T_T
shes my only soulmate, & now she has gone to japan to fulfil her dreams. what about me? will i be able to fulfil my dreams as well or will i just live the simple life with my fav job which is not so bad after all bcuz im 100% sure i'll be doing something i love(music,drama,scriptwriting,entertaiment.. etccccccc)?

dreams are beautiful... but the realistic world of my life often reminds me that i need to be realistic & down-to-earth.i need to step on this realistic earth & be realistic... yes, being realistic is nothin bad, but im not. im not a realistic person-im a dreamy one. i know myself well.

right now, all i know is i gotta study hard & move forward.. all i hv to do is just study.hard.

& when i hv the chance,i wont hesitate to take up any job to earn more... i need to earn.
for my boys. theres only 2 thing in my mind for now, studies & SJ.
i'll try my best to motivate myself to do better in exams.. to study better & practice harder.. i like accounts & history.. i like the subjects in my class ... i like economics. i know, this is unbelieavable but eversince i entered the arts stream, i finally realised this was the future for me although it wasnt really my ideal path. but, i like business & i like literature..i admit im not an academic person but i dont blame anyone or myself for it.. because sometimes, some things in ourselves are really fated by god. yes, i dont believe in fate too, but as u discover urself,u'll find what ure really capable & talented & interested in, right?

i respect those who're in science streams & i expect them to respect us as well. we respect each other,right?yes?no?
im not going to insult the sc subjects, but its because since i was young, i nvr had interest & the talent or the brain for maths&sc related stuffs,so yeahhhhhhh.
lets say;even if i work hard for science , it will be useless even though i get excellent results due to the hardwork, because I DONT HAVE THE INTEREST.whats the point?interest is all that matters. if u love the subject,you'll master it. right?
as for me, i really dont care anymore if theres anyone who says arts stream is for idiots or look down or whatsoever.. because all i know is i'm happy with my choice. & i never regretted it-not even for a second.