it's not the "END", it's an "AND"..
생일 추카해!
goodbye stage #1
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lets walk together.
아니,난 당시넙씨는 살 쑤업씀니다.
all i know.
SUPERSHOW II THE 2ND ASIA TOUR
MALAYSIA BOLEH!
제발, 가지마.
running away from the reality is not helping. maybe,for a while. nothing could stop this pain,nothing.there is noone to listen,i've been hiding everything inside its so hard. it doesn't even matter anymore whether there is anyone who actually cares because perhaps i don't deserve it.
i try to distract my attention by doing things that'd make me happy,the things that i enjoy, the things i liked.
but time has to come. i lose to myself. i lose to the selfish & stupid me. i lose to my own life. i lose the game with god. i promised to be strong,yet i can't. i still lose everything in the end. no matter how many ways i tried to inspire myself.
i scrolled down my contact list,hoping to find someone who i could talk to,or maybe just listen,in less than a minute i switched off my phone & cover myself under the blankets,not wanting to come out. i did not cry,i can't. it was hurting this bad i wished i could sleep forever,not waking up anymore. if once,please take out my heart & donate it to anyone who needs it. i can't face this heart,i want it to stop beating. i want to stop living. i'm running from reality,yes i'm being selfish,but if i ever suceeded..this sacrisfice is for something really stupid & meaningless. i know that but yet i choose to do so..i don't blame it on anyone. it's the way i think & judge my decisions,so even if it's stupid,it's me.
if i can have a wish, i just want to leave without anyone knowing. i just want to disappear & not die from this world. as if i haven't existed. as if noone ever knew who i am.
do you know whats the worst feeling in the world?when the only ones you have in your life,does not give a damn about how you feel. does not concern.family-what is the meaning anymore? i never had one.
YOU KNOW WHAT'S WORSE? when there's noone to trust. when the only ones you had in life start hurting you.
no matter how much i tried to express,i can never let out this piles of burden because there won't be anyone who will understand this feeling. because you are not alone,i am.
by meaning alone it isn't just that simple,it's deep.
it was me & myself all along. all i ever had is the voices in my head comforting myself.& this piece of broken heart.
you know what. i can't do this. call me stupid,call me a bitch.
when i come from..should be when i leave?
the last thing i want to do is to simply disappear without anyone knowing..
