i feel so down ㅠㅠ
things that i want improve,hardly never improves.
yet things that i dont wish to improve,always improves.

its 12am now & i'm really sleepy,but i can't sleep. my head;it feels so heavy. why do i feel so much burden? i even changed my blogskin & play with the stupid codes thinking i'll definitely fall asleep after doing such a thing at my irritated mode.
but shit no. i feel even more headache & harder to sleep.
idk whats wrong. i just dont feel right. i feel sick physically & mentally. & i keep feeling like im gonna throw up anytime D:

i guess i'm just too wrapped up in my own world that everything have been piling up in me,be it burden nor stress. like this,i can't open up my heart-at all. i tried you know.
who is controlling me now? i feel like there is someone else inside me,someone extremely stubborn & evil trying to take over me.


oh gosh. what have i gotten myself into?