the heartbeat paused.
the eraser in my head.
thank you.
see you in my funeral people.
sickkkk.
outta control
timeless.
i can't breathe no more;i can't sleep no more.
defeated.
wake me up when september ends.
& i was quite tired from school today,you know. today's the last day at school for pretty much everyone & we were busy the whole day with the form 5 books organization thing.
& pls just let me say one thing,F5 books are fugly~lmao. f4 textbooks are so much prettier,rofl. 8D
too bad we havent gotten accounts & history books yet,since the 09 f5 are using it now for their exam.
anyways..1 & a half month will pass in a blink of an eye. so i really dont see the point why people's like hardcore celebrating the so called short freedom..tsk.
during this holidays i'll make some time to reflect on myself,what ive been doing wrong & things like that. & then train myself to be meaner & become a real bad ass. muahahahahhahaha.
ROFL. do you seriously believe that? -_-
idk,but i'll try to improve myself & be a better person as in sense of strength,patience & most importantly the passion & determination to overcome the stress i will be facing with especially with the SPM phobia i've developed..its not doing me any good DD<
& i'm senior soon,rofl. i admit,no matter how i see it,its like i'm a 8th grader ㅠㅠㅠㅠ
so really,i should work on my height. i CAN'T be stuck at this height,nononono.
to make matters worse, 18 if we count the infamous korean age. seriously now,this people just dont look their age. 94'er? need to think twice to believe that >_<
& this of the same age with me. what does that just make me? T-T
and the 92'ers make my age more deceived than the 93'er suprisingly.
anyway,by now.. i should get ready & prepare myself for next yr.i can predict how hard its going to be alr, a girl's instincts is never wrong. this year went exceptionally hard because i was so unprepared, so immature, so fragile, & all the bad things you can think of.
in the future..i wish to stand stronger,more matured,less fragile, and..........................
...ahem....taller. seriously now,even a 14 yr old prefect is 1 & a half head by me..dont even talk about the f3's. i feel like a freaking
whatever it takes i.must.go.tall.
BLEH. i will. dont despise my passion,i mean it this time. *serious glare* lol.
and i really,really,REALLY WANNA WATCH 2012. this is probably the most anticipated movie of the year for me. its screening in the cinemas today T-T damn you liz. who am i suppose to hit the cinema with you "dating" in singapore now? XDDDDDDDDDDD so much for the word "dating". XD
& dont be scared to talk to me or use heavy language okay? im really fine now,not down anymore. ^^ youre making me feeling guilty y'kno. i saw you on msn earlier & you know what happened next.. XD you should know i change really quick right? if i'm down today i'll be fine the next day.. dont blame me..blame the hormones. hormonal imbalance wtf -_-
p/s: 2012. T-T
im trying really hard,why are you still pushing me? i hate this. why do i have to live like this? i dont wanna live like this anymore...please. once is enough,twice is death to me. where is real home? its all gone..just when i thought this will be the last time,i was wrong.. idk,i don't wanna lost my home. i lost it once,& i know how much it hurts.. GOD when will you stop my heart from beating?
