this day finally came. the thing that i dont wanna happen the most finally happened. it was a bitter experience,but i'm so bitter myself i cant even feel the bitterness anymore.
from what happened today ive finally learned,ive finally realised,to never,ever trust anyone in the world but yourself.this world has once again proven me that noone is worthy to be trusted at all.. not even your own family.

thank you so much for that lesson,it was the most useful lesson i ever had in my life.

you taught me to be a cruel person,remember that. i'm officially a person without feelings,i am numb. this way is so much better, i dont even feel anything anymore.

right now i do not want to listen to anything nor talk about anything. please do not bother me. i have a big time of fuss with this issue & i dont wanna deal with another nonsense. i'm so fumed up nothing else matters anymore.


at this moment only one person's voice calms me down. lee hong ki. the same song has been repeating since this morning in my mp3,hongki is the only thing i need in this dark world.

p/s: is today's weather a sign to let me know that my heart'd cry as much & turn this cold as well?