i'm mad because i couldn't contain my stupid tears from filling my damn eyes each time someone shows their concern to me.
i'm mad because the moment they start flooding my eyes its so mad obvious & people can see through how i really feel. in this situation, i could just break down in less than 5 seconds at most times. fml
i'm mad because once they drip i can't resist the urge to tell the person in concern what i've been going through,how i really feel. be it just a stranger,i just wanna tell her/him anything & everything.
i'm mad because all i need is not sympathism.
i'm mad because i don't even know why i'm feeling so down.
i'm mad because every little thing means everything to me.
i'm mad because i can't effing control my emotions.
i'm mad because i fuckin cried each & every night on bed till i fall asleep.
i'm mad because the next day i'd woke up with dried tears across my cheeks & find it pathetic.
i'm mad because i'm sick & tired of helping myself when nothing works.
i'm mad because i feel that this is not life i'm living.
i'm mad because i figured out lies too easily.
i'm mad because nobody ever took me seriously.
i'm mad because i'm all left alone.
i'm mad because everyone is together. i'm the only odd one.
i'm mad because i don't need friends too.
i'm mad because people can change so easily. they'll just be another person in front of you,and then change to another person in front of the other person.
i'm mad because i'm like that too.
i'm mad because promises are meant to be broken,after all.
i'm mad because its so hard to change go back to myself.

I'VE LOST MYSELF. DO YOUR HEAR THAT?
that's right,you don't care. i don't care. noone does.

Labels: melancholies