I'm glad I aint the "kpop is ALL my life" kinda freak anymore because messed up priorities are messed up. I know my stuff. But I still roll in & fangirl once in a while. Its all good. I think its because of the whole newbies and kids going gaga over abs & autotunes. Whatever happened to the old kpop? The new kpop sucked. In a ~good~ way. I suppose I don't hate it for sure cause we all know it sucked so beautifully that we still dig it no matter what.
If you've been reading, you'd guess i jumped into the bandwagon back in '08 when I first fangirled SJ. Well it used to be that way. Until I realized my first encouter with kpop is back in '06. (i actually realised this fact ages ago) the more i think about it the more history i actually recalled.
When it all started in '05 with DBSK. Excluding old school kpop(which I discovered later & fell in love with the past & what they did when i was 5 rather than the present. Period.). Back then those weren't kpop to me. In fact, what is kpop, if you ask me? I have no idea then. Those were just mere good music I found & my first playlist were flooded with RAIN (you had no idea how much I fangirled him, I Do & Its Raining is still my jam♥.) BoA SE7EN FTTS Wheesung - especially BoA. Rmbr Amazing Kiss? I have no idea when that came out but it was my first girl crush track. And then there were friendster. Which died a tragic death because of facebook. lol.
I created fs in '06 and flooded the whole profile with BoA/Rain music videos. rofl. I kinda regretted deleting the acc because shut up imma sentimental ~old memories~ creep like that ;-;
Then my first computer died(T.T) and I had a change of 3 computers before changing to HP, where my playlist now mostly contains mainstream kpop like everyone else. I still listen to oldschool/indie/jazz/underground kpop the most♥ Speaking of which, go listen to J.ae people. The music softer than cotton candy. Or even Navi. Check out her cover of Hot & Cold. anddd 4MEN or Brown Eyed Soul. Dangg. ♥
When i searched through other old profiles under my e-mail(I've been using the very one & only same e-mail since '06) through the old social networking sites that are kpop-related , I'm suprised myself to see the date i actually encountered kmusic. '08 is just the exact yr i decided to do real fangirl and involve.

But yeah. Lately have you seen girls going "Changjo oppa~~~♥" that is creppier than ahjummas talking about loverholic robotronic in carrefour. idk. you decide which is worse :\

No. Just no. Baby fangirls are creepy. ;X;

now for some rl-
Going to UM for a BM seminar tmw! Kinda wished they did that for other sub actually. Like History or Accounts. Or even Maths. Because lol most of them are going just because this might be the only chance we actually get to step foot into UM, the first & oldest uni in Malaysia.

When i try to talk about it , even here- I get this sharp headache, as if my head refuses to think. It suffocates & begs me not to. THAT hurt. more.

p/s: Is this what its supposed to feel when you're on the verge of hitting outta high school soon? When high school seems so short, there is nothing to carry with you when you leave? When there really isn't anything to reminisce. When your worst time of life happens during high school and you happen to not leave with happiness?


p/p/s: I still believe what I believe. Even if its hurting me. Period.
p/p/p/s: DNW girl groups or whatsoever. BoA needs to be here, aight?
p/p/p/p/s: BoA & miss A conquered my repeat list its frustrating ;X;