v_v can you tell how this week of exam has been like?

here, have ma fake nature social work caps, well it turns out really fake kekekekeke





so yet another one hell of a exam week goes by! well it wasn't that bad. next week & the following week is the real torture though. especially accounts. UGH ;~;
anyway my mood swings has been really bad these days & i've been throwing tantrums to everyone who cares about me. i'm hurting them ): especially dad. there's not even a day when we don't communicate by argueing every single matter. as he grows old he's more sensitive, i understand that. but he doesnt seem to understand that as i grow up i tend to be more aggressive too. & that is laying towards a bad direction cuz i'm so competitive you wouldn't believe it. in some ways i'm just sucha a perfectionist its wearing every single energy out from me. idk. & i know i dont work hard enough because i'm still aggressive. i need to let it go that way so i'll be good but sigh. dont even ask whats wrong with me. you dont wanna know. u_u
theres a lof of things i wanna do with a friend. but my urges just doesn't shine through enough to be noticed that i'm actually a bright person, if you make me. /headesks/
i've been longing for ♥

anyway. 2 days ago i was like SCREW YOU TAYLOR'S. DD: Gimme my damn mass comm/H&T and not biz you bum! oh my gon' be wasted college life in one day.. T-T
but now i'm just like fyeah taylors sure has some kind people around i'll be going for two programs! both business & hospitality&tourism wheee~ TvT

and fuck. i've gone from very decisive/certain to VERY indecisive/uncertain. sometimes i just dont know EXACTLY where my future lies in. i have a bit of passion for everything there isn't more or less or nytin like that cuz as a passionate teen we just have an urge to try everything out dont we? but as for my case i'm just torn but i think i'm pretty darn certain now. i do get shook up a lil from time to time but in the end i still head back to the same direction i wanted to. few days ago i was struggling and sorta like had a "brain war" haha but its all good now. but dang its so true that the older you grow the more indecisive you get.

now i just worry about my abilities. if i were to take up business i'm just worried i'm not capable enough to shoulder such a huge thing cuz business=amazing race. LOL its a much more complicated & brain-cracking race & i know i'm not that well-suited for this cuz i'm not even good with maths & see thats why D: since im such a huge perfectionist H&T might be the one for me~ but ah man idk. we'll see when i spent my CLOD during the mid-term holidays :)


p.s history. oh why do i keep screwing you. >_o